My Journey of Awakening

 Full moon day 14th June 2022 (Vat Purnima Jagannath Snan Purnima )

For the last few days I was watching Param Pujya Yug-Purush Swami Parmanand Giri Ji Maharaj YouTube channel. He has one of the clearest concept of Nonduality and express in very logical lucid way and also talks about how he got awakened by his Guru.

Sunitha Sapur (Dietician) from Apollo was insisting me to read Nisargadatta Maharaj's book "I am that". But it was very boring to ask in meditation Who am I repeatedly. Samyuka Pai Psychologist and Shiva Manager IT SSSIHMS (Satya Sai Hospital Bengaluru) are also staunch believer of Nonduality and Raman Maharshi's followers. 

For last one year I was reading Yoga Vashistha the ultimate treatise on Nonduality a conversation between Lord Ram and his Guru Vashistha. Ram was depressed after coming back from pilgrimage and had deep detachment from the world. Vashistha explained with several stories that how this world is nothing but a long dream. Ultimate truth never changes.

I was expecting some form of sudden transformation where I will change totally. But Swami Parmanand Giri was explaining how subtle it is just change of track and told a joke. Once two passenger boarded in a train from Delhi one had to go to Mumbai and other to Kolkata. One was on upper birth and other in lower. When they were chatting one said I am going to Mumbai and other to Kolkata. Then one said see how things have changed in BJP Raj upper birth is going to Kolkata and lower to Mumbai. Guruji was explaining how subtle it is to change our thinking from body mind consciousness to Brahma consciousness or Brahma Vidya. He was telling it is difficult and takes time but possible with repeated effort. Yoga Vashistha also insist on this perseverance.

Yesterday (14th June) there was a discussion about Nimitta (निमित्त) in our WhatsApp Group Effervescent started by Dr Partha Kolita few years ago. When discussion heated Dr Amol Kanti Sen (Cardiologist from Jabalpur) called me and asked why I am not helping people by teaching about Sanatana (सनातन) Dharma. I refused smiling, that it is not my path. Then I called Rajagopal Panchapakeshan (मुन्ना) who is also from Jabalpur and a Tamil Genius Brahmin (Ayer) and as usual has very good knowledge of Indian Scripture. He was in Rishikesh. We were discussing about Nonduality or Advaita philosophy the ultimate way to get enlightened or better word awakened. I said till I get awakened I will not stop.

Evening I was listening to few lectures of Swami Parmanand and then Swami Vivekanand lecture of how to do Atmaanubhuti. It was good initially but later become boring so I slept. Evening meditation I was asking Ma Kali to get awakened. In the Moring when I got up at 3am I realized that I am not the body and mind. Meditation was witnessing this body and various thoughts of my childhood and since I was first awakened after my first meditation in 1980.

There is a strong belief in Indian that you cannot evolve spiritually without Guru. My question was who was Guru of the first Guru? And Swami Satyananda replied elegantly "Lord Shiva". Since then HE became my spiritual Guru. Of Course, your mother and father are your first Guru especially my mother who had guided me since childhood till ascended at 93 years after r 10 years patiently waiting as bed bound.

My spiritual journey began in childhood with ritual evening Sandhya puja with Ram bhajan and Hanuman Chalisa. My mother used to take me to temples in Jabalpur and I used to keep photos of several Gods Goddess in my room and would talk to them and ask for my desires. I used to read yoga books and follow Asana and try to do meditation. Especially Sri Iyengar's book was most influential.
It was in 1980 July August my fiance took me to Transcendental meditation center to Retired Army officer Bakshi in Jabalpur who became spiritual after losing his son in 1979 war. There were several TM centers in Jabalpur since it was the birthplace of Maharishi Mahesh Yogi.
It was very easy for me to pick up meditation with the TM technique. I was going into deep meditation for 1-2 hours and that time my head would drop forward and hand would start moving. When I asked for clarification to our meditation teacher answer was very unsatisfactory that I was doing too much meditation and stick to 20min morning and evening meditation and lift my head if it falls. Too much of anything is not good.
It was almost the end of my connection with the first Guru. Within a few days when I asked the same question to Mrs. Jain who was Hindi Professor and practitioner of yoga, mother of one of our teacher in Medical college. Her reply was simple and convincing. She said Guru is within, you will be guided and soon you will get automatic asana, pranayama, mudra and bandha. Excited with her answer I reached home by noon and went straight to the open terrace of my home at Shobhapur Jabalpur. As soon as I  sat for meditation my hand opened and started rotating at wrist and elbow. Head  bend down and rotated in a clockwise and anticlockwise direction. Various asanas followed many of them I knew and many I did not. Everything was automatic without my volition. My mother was calling for lunch but I had no control of my body and mind. I had decided to follow inner guidance and continue till it stops.  Various mudra pranayam specially Ujjayi and then meditation followed. I had lost all will or had surrendered to nature and did not wanted to get up unless it happened without my effort. My eyes opened and I got up like a cat and walked down for dinner. I spoke when it came spontaneously from within. It was the beginning of a new journey of my life my voluntary muscles became involuntary like heart and intestine. They were perfectly aligned with  nature and guided by inner Guru. For one year during my final year of MD Medicine due to a sudden and dramatic change in my life and strange behaviour everyone thought I had gone mad. But it was a great time for me. No worry no need to study like before. Typed my thesis in meditation as if knowledge was within.
Daily Asana and pranayama ritual continued automatically morning evening for half an hour to 45 minutes. Starts with  pranayama in padmasana, then 1. Paschimottanasana, 2. Halasana 3. Chakrasana 4. Sirsasana or Sarvangasana and end with a short meditation.
After MD 1981 Feb I did not practice medicine for 9 months, and to Munger Yoga Ashram of Swamy Satyananda with mother and father for their treatment and me for Yoga Teachers training course for a month. It was very difficult for me to practice Hatha Yoga due to total loss of control. Somehow learned all technique specially Jal Neti and Shankha prakshalan. Within 15 day got a telegram from Tripti to come back for an interview at Bhilai Hospital. When I asked permission from Shri Satyanand he said you know everything and gave me a certificate of a yoga teacher.
My daily ritual of Asana, Pranayama Meditation did not follow what I had learned from Munger Ashram but happened automatically like before. Married in Nov 1981. without a job. Later did short term medical officer job in Khamariya factory hospital and then Gun Carriage Factory hospital. Tripti was not happy doing general practice. Next, our job offer came from Bhilai and we joined immediately with better salary (Rs. 2500/month) and hospital. Yoga practice continued in Bhilai and for a year and practiced total vegetarianism and finally only taking fruits. Within one year we were transferred to Rajhara mines hospital, small but very friendly place. Arpit my son was small. It was easy to look after him doing alternate night duty and day duty.
Tripti got fed up with General medicine work and wanted to do specialization in cardiology. I was interested in Neurology not for disorders of the nervous system but to understand para-neurology or spiritualism.
CMC Vellore invited me to join as Non PG Registrar in neurology and then DM Neurology and Tripti got a job as Junior resident in Apollo Hospital Chennai and then as DNB in Cardiology.
Meditation became deeper in Vellore with Pranayama and Asana. After doing DM Neurology and Cardiology we were posted in newly opened Hyderabad Apollo Hospital in 1990 Jan 1st. A young male Iranian case of black magic was admitted in hospital with a severe fear of death and died in ICU. No one could revive him. Next morning Dr. Pratap C. Reddy our Chairman came and casually said it was black magic very common in South India. My yoga ritual continued as before with much less progress. 1993 learned Acupuncture at Apollo and later went for International conference of Alternative medicine organized by Dr. Anton Jayasuriya a famous teacher and author of Acupuncture books and conducting several courses. Joined MD Acupuncture course in 7 days which was an opening to many new alternative ways to treat and direct and interaction with Anton Jayasuriya. It was also exposure to energy medicine, Reiki and Radionics.  Big gathering from all over the world.
Came back and same year went to Saudi Arabia as Neurologist for one and a half year. Completed USMLE 2 and 1 and came back. Saudi was good exposure to Islam and Middle east.
After returning learned Reiki level 1 and dowsing. It was a big change in my life to know how thought travel and we are connected with distance objects both living and nonliving. Soon initiated for Reiki II, III and Master level at Jabalpur in the same sitting by my childhood friend Swapan Nandi. Tried practicing in patients and relatives and took some teaching sessions also.
A stroke patient's son took an interview about alternative medicine and at the end of the interview, he asked whether I believe in black magic. After learning Reiki I knew that like it works for healing also called the "white magic" opposite of it must be Black magic. Next day big interview published in new paper Deccan Chronical headline "Doctor who believes in Black magic". Many energy healers came in contact.
In 2000 learned Hypnosis by Mr. Pradeep Agrawal in two days.  It was very easy to learn and hypnotize others. Dr. Newton MD came in contact who was doing Past Life Regression regularly suggested me to read a few books. The most interesting was Brian Weiss book Many life many masters. His 2nd book Time through into healing was a collection of cases of the past life-related problem in a different sphere of life and their solution by recollecting the events.

2002 we were asked to go to Sri Lanka for newly opened Apollo hospital. It was very exciting to go there with premonition few months ago. It was not my expectation  of spiritual posting which began unrevealing within few months with first case of Past life regression for a young girl who had severe abdominal pain related to past life murder by stabbing. She was totally relieved of pain and taught me many new things about other realms.
2003 I fell down from a water fall at Bopath Ella and broke my leg. Came back to Hyderabad to join Apollo but that was not my destiny. Went back Sri Lanka and had next experience of communicating with a young brain dead lady with the help of Geetha who was my first case of Past Life Regression (PLR). Her soul was guided for next life by improving her Karma.
2004 there was most fascinating case of a young girl who came with severe headache and not finding any serious problem she was coming for hypnotic session as out patient. First day she saw two eyes looking at her which became full body with white robe and light coming out. HE said touching her shoulder "I have send some one who is next to you will help you in future as Father Angel." 3rd day HE  was talking about my family and how THEY helped me to become doctor. HE said " you are blessed by your Gods and this is the time to thank them. Next day (Sunday) we went to nearby Ganesh temple which we had visited before. Monday 13th September 2004 was my wife's birthday. when I asked her how are you? She said I am not suppose to tell you. rest in another blog.  https://www.blogger.com/blog/post/edit/8347691180492547562/7352204009405740739

Satya Sai

1. Fibromyalgia case in Hyderabad 96 Swami advised her to see a Doctor in Hyderabad.

2. Sri Lanka Kadragama foreign minister 2004 visited me for Stroke he was a swami devotee and use to get speak in meeting without preparation. He was Christian and made LTTE as terrorist organization and shot by them later.

3. IIIT student in meditation saw crossing brin a road two side green and dry. Swami was walking ahead entered in water. She also entered and saw Swami opening book she thought He was showing her thesis which she couldn't complete. But when He opened, it was Geeta she didn't understand the message.

4. Dreamt in a jungle Dr Bora chairmen of GNRC me and my younger brother in a room then we came out on a road Dr Bora was in the middle Vijay on left side and me on right. A saint came on a wheelchair and blessed all of us I could feel his nail pricking on my 3rd eye. He ha long hair which he shook and stood then I realized he was non other than Jesus christ but now i know that he was Swami.

5. Joined SSSIHMS in 2015 April 15 during interview while sitting in Directors office from his photo blessing came and pierced my heart.

6. Rekha and Boora joined SSSIHMS in May 2019. One day Rekha had severe headache and while giving her Reiki I saw Devi Laxmi.

7. Rekha was not a Spiritual kind but was getting dreams and being protected by Hanuman. One day she had a dream of Swami sitting on a throne and Bhajan was going on Hanuman was sitting behind and also doing Bhajan. Samhita was looking for Hanuman who termed into a Human form.

8. Nov 2019 saw Him blessings during Bhajan on the sky with both hands apart.

9. March 2021 during Bhajan saw Sheshnaag on the right side Swami lying head on the right side side turn hand behind head . Sheshnaag bend up became a sofa and Swami sitting.

10. 13 June 2021 saw Swami in his old age head bend forward walking between devotee slowly on orange robe. Asked who is Swami? Everyone turned to Swami "God Goddess, human animals and all inanimate objects". 9th day of Dr. Hiramath meditation at 3.30 today finished at 4.42.

11. On 29th June Rekha had a dream of an Angel came and took her on a flying horse and showed light and told you don't

12. Rekha had dream Swamy was blessing both and gave Pattu sari to Rekha and Green Kurta to Boora. Next day Praveen called and gave sari and Kurta Krishna Ashtami puja on Aug 30 2021

13. 10. Few days ago had a dream we where in Sapulpa house. There was a shower in latrine are which became bathroom and everyone was going and taking bath reoving cloth Swami was also there. Then saw Swami sitting outside telling why we call Sriram it ultimately reaches Him.

14. 23.9.21 Boora had a dream Swamy came on a wheelchair. How are you Swami, do you have pain. No I act pain. Boora: What are you doing now? Swami: I am coming to you .And he became a child. Rekha had dream a Golden fish is talking to her and gave her some pulses and asked her to count them. She counted and said 200 grains. She said your time has come and pack your luggage, you should move in 20 days time. Rekha replied how is that possible now? DCM will not be available now, she said I will take care of everything.

15. From July 7th 2022 started Guru mantra japa and finished 1.25 L in a week and crossed 3L next week. Effect was good and relaxing. Reached maximum 300 mala on Ekadashi. Then speed reduced but after Rajgopalan said that Guru Gorakhnath did 66K mantra siddhi. I started doing more sets of Mantra including Kali, Ganesh, Guru and Surya . Finished Guru mantra jaap for 12Lakh and counter broke in November 22. Now practicing Kriyayog with Sri Vidya, Mantra.

16. Took Kriyayog deeksha from Swami Nitanand and Shakara and in Rishikesh in October, November 2022