My Journey of Awakening

 Full moon day 14th June 2022 (Vat Purnima Jagannath Snan Purnima )

For the last few days I was watching Param Pujya Yug-Purush Swami Parmanand Giri Ji Maharaj YouTube channel. He has one of the clearest concept of Nonduality and express in very logical lucid way and also talks about how he got awakened by his Guru.

Sunitha Sapur (Dietician) from Apollo was insisting me to read Nisargadatta Maharaj's book "I am that". But it was very boring to ask in meditation Who am I repeatedly. Samyuka Pai Psychologist and Shiva Manager IT SSSIHMS (Satya Sai Hospital Bengaluru) are also staunch believer of Nonduality and Raman Maharshi's followers. 

For last one year I was reading Yoga Vashistha the ultimate treatise on Nonduality a conversation between Lord Ram and his Guru Vashistha. Ram was depressed after coming back from pilgrimage and had deep detachment from the world. Vashistha explained with several stories that how this world is nothing but a long dream. Ultimate truth never changes.

I was expecting some form of sudden transformation where I will change totally. But Swami Parmanand Giri was explaining how subtle it is just change of track and told a joke. Once two passenger boarded in a train from Delhi one had to go to Mumbai and other to Kolkata. One was on upper birth and other in lower. When they were chatting one said I am going to Mumbai and other to Kolkata. Then one said see how things have changed in BJP Raj upper birth is going to Kolkata and lower to Mumbai. Guruji was explaining how subtle it is to change our thinking from body mind consciousness to Brahma consciousness or Brahma Vidya. He was telling it is difficult and takes time but possible with repeated effort. Yoga Vashistha also insist on this perseverance.

Yesterday (14th June) there was a discussion about Nimitta (निमित्त) in our WhatsApp Group Effervescent started by Dr Partha Kolita few years ago. When discussion heated Dr Amol Kanti Sen (Cardiologist from Jabalpur) called me and asked why I am not helping people by teaching about Sanatana (सनातन) Dharma. I refused smiling, that it is not my path. Then I called Rajagopal Panchapakeshan (मुन्ना) who is also from Jabalpur and a Tamil Genius Brahmin (Ayer) and as usual has very good knowledge of Indian Scripture. He was in Rishikesh. We were discussing about Nonduality or Advaita philosophy the ultimate way to get enlightened or better word awakened. I said till I get awakened I will not stop.

Evening I was listening to few lectures of Swami Parmanand and then Swami Vivekanand lecture of how to do Atmaanubhuti. It was good initially but later become boring so I slept. Evening meditation I was asking Ma Kali to get awakened. In the Moring when I got up at 3am I realized that I am not the body and mind. Meditation was witnessing this body and various thoughts of my childhood and since I was first awakened after my first meditation in 1980.