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Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Encounter with Goddess 2006

Mahi was a 20-year-old girl referred by a psychiatrist for multiple somatic complaints. She lost her father at the age of 2 and living with mother and elder brother in a tropical war affected country.

After an initial interview and review of investigation I did not find any physical cause for her illness. To find out her problem I initiated trance with soft music. She saw small girls Brahmi, Vairagi, Saraswati Durga, Vaishnavi and Laxmi (Indian Goddesses). She went back with advice to continue meditation which she had been doing from the age of four.

She was born on the day of Goddess Abhirami’s birthday, 24th February. On this day every year she witnesses Abhirami in her meditation, SHE plays Karnataka music or does Classical dance on her request.


Mahi’s unusual Birthday Gift of the year. 24th February


SHE appeared after one hour of meditation at 1030pm. SHE was looking at me but did not talk for a long time, and then she said “I will give a great present to you, for good thing you must wait for a long time. But I am happy with your prayers.

SHE closed her eyes and then touched her right eye and my right eye then SHE touched her left eye and my left.


SHE told me that I should see everything that I see. You should hear all the sounds and waves which I hear and you should feel everything which I feel.


Then you have to think deeply about why this is? Why do people take birth and die? Why is there happiness and sorrow?


Then she asked "Can you recognize me from others ? Now you can understand that everyone is depending on me. I asked why did you make the relationship between all humans begin? Is it necessary?


She replied " I send all people to a act in a Drama, I give different role which are decided by their previous life"


Do you know who you are? And Who am I? I said "I am a soul and you are the supreme soul.


She said Hindu, Muslim, Buddhist and Christians all are my children, no race, no caste; they are given by man to man. This is not your name and all of you must return to your home which is in heaven.


Some humans will return early and others also must return. If they get knowledge of the soul they return early. I will tell you the knowledge of the soul which will help you to return to heaven early.


This is an extract you can think about these words. You must give up your ego and love your brother, mother and others, then your soul will be liberated from suffering, then you will feel like asking more questions.


This must come spontaneously, where did I come from and why did I come and who did send me here.

No anger, no love, no sorrow, no sympathy no feeling, surrender to me then I will give happiness.


"O God if I am a room you will live in it,

If I am a cover you will stay as knife

Whatever you say I will do

Whatever you think I will think

I must pursue my words deeds and thoughts all depends on you

Om shanti.


22nd March

Since yesterday Devi is in my heart and she is controlling everything she is in my eyes. I cannot speak to myself. This continued for a month.


18th April

Developed severe neck and head pain and was refusing to take Reiki. Next day she could not sit and went off from meditation due to a headache.


June 11th Encounter with Goddess on Mah’s Word…


To My Dearest Mother,


First I worship your lotus feet. I will write about the incident later. But I have to ask for an excuse from you. Because I didn’t believe you at that moment and after that. I have asked some broken questions from you. Before that incident I argued with you and forgot my real life. I accept all my faults , but you are always my mother for all births, so I have the right to ask or argue with you. You know our Jaffna situation, those incidents changed me and I argue with you. I know your mercy, love and all other things. I hope you accept my excuse.

My all feelings, body and soul are given by you. Actually I didn’t think that I was a real devotee of you. I thought I am a cover, you are a knife. This is Kaliyuga, so I didn’t believe that God can come in a physical form. I have no evidence but so much effect I have. Now you are my Guru. But you are always my mother. I didn’t know Sanskrit so I asked so many questions. I didn't want anything without athmaganana. If you want to give anything to my physical life or spiritual life it is your desire.


You are loving, Dura.


11.06.2007 6 pm


I was alone at home; my grandma had gone out to see a doctor to Wellawatta. Within 2 min of closing the door someone came, I looked through window, two monks to ask alms. I told house owner is out. Then I went to meditate in my room in front of Lord Ganapathi, while meditating I opened my eye to see HIS trunk became bright and heard a voice in Sanskrit “Brahmani Naari uthiyanam”. I didn’t understand the meaning so send a SMS to Dr Deb. Then our doorbell rang, looking through window I saw a Hindu lady wearing yellow sari, Kumkum and santhana. She wanted to speak to me, but I was scared to open the door as my grandma advised. She called me again “Thura open the door I want to speak with you.” I was shocked, because this name was given to me by Devi when I was eight years old. SHE told this means Loving child. I have told this to Dr Deb only, this gave me clue and I opened the door.

There was a 3year old girl with her mother was passing who came from Kandy. She asked me in singhala “ Meya oyada ammatha?” or is she your mother? I said “no” then asked the LADY who are you? She did not reply. The girls mother asked her what are you talking, no one is there.

SHE went straight to my room and sat in front of Lord Ganapathi’s statue and closed her eyes. SHE sat in nishda for some time. I was confused and scared of Grandma, if she comes and scolds me. SHE started to speak, First she said Om then SHE recited Guru mantra “ Guru Brahma Guru Vishnu….” I was going into trance. SHE told me that I have to learn a lot. SHE started telling me about My Past Life. SHE has already told me before that I was born in Gujarat India in a Brahmin family.

“SHE was fair complexioned, taller and older to me. SHE was beautiful with merciful eyes. SHE was in a yellow sari and wearing Mangalyam, kumkum. SHE was speaking in Sanskrit and broken Tamil.”



My past life


SHE said “I have already told you that you were born in Gujarat in your previous birth in a Brahmin family. You were an only child, and you had bad friends. Your behavior was not good. Your father was an Ayurvedic physician. Your family has used Ayurvedic medicine for many generations. You were cruel to the patient coming to your father’s clinic. Most of the time you used to hide medicine, to harass your parents. You did many bad deeds during 18 -22 years of your life. Your father was very sad and did suicide, your mother also died in few days.

You started realizing your mistake. You accepted ME as your mother. You did a lot of social service later. Due to your last birth problem, you are suffering now. Other people have more problems. I gave you everything in this birth except realizing from this problem Why? You disturbed other people, so this numbness was given to me.

In your previous birth you were searching for the reality of life. You went to many places and met many people without getting satisfaction. At last, you met Dr Deb and his wife. They guided you and showed you the reality. They were giving your advice and counseling. Mrs. Deb gave great love to you. You started realizing me and asked me if I was reborn again and wanted to know reality. Send me to them as a Guru. I have already told you that he is your guru. When you were suffering last year, I arranged to send you to meet Dr Deb in Jan 2006. First you did not recognize him and after a few meetings only you could realize. You did not believe him on the first meeting, all are decided by God.

Don’t you know who is your mother (Mrs V Kailaiyngiricheham or VK) and your brother Gauribalam (G). Your mother was your last birth mother’s cousin sister and G was her son. When your mother died Mrs VK and G looked after you. You asked me to become her daughter in the next birth and G as brother. You know that your brother is very good and always prays for your health and life. Your grandma was your neighbor in your previous birth. They came from Pune to Gujarat. She also loved you.


I asked in my previous birth that I was born in India, and why was I born in Jaffna now. Why did you send me to a psychiatric doctor?


SHE replied Jaffna is a good place to get self realization. There has been war since the 70s you would learn from it more, you saw so many murders, bombasts and lost your father in the war. You have lost your three friends. You could not see your father was a curse for you, since he did suicide in the previous life due to your bad activities. You saw the physical suffering of the war. Mental suffering is worse, and to see that I have sent you to a psychiatrist. After seeing those patients you asked me not to give mental suffering to any one. Don’t you think why did you go to an orphanage and an elder's home from your small age, that was also asked by you in your previous birth.



I got a call from Dr Deb, I told him what happened, he was asking is she still there? Is she physical or metaphysical? I was in kitchen to give her cool drink, SHE also entered there. I told Dr Deb can you hear SHe is still speaking, Dr Deb could hear some background sound so I gave mobile to HER, SHE asked in Tamil “Yaru? Yarungo? (Who are you) He told his name in English and asked her to speak in Hindi or English. SHE gave phone to me.

I told Dr Deb about what she was talking about. SHE was in the hall, I was talking in my room. When I came to the hall she told all the conversation between me and Dr Deb. SHE told me, was he not asking to speak in Hindi? I was shocked.


I told her if SHE is Devi, why she refused to speak to Dr Deb in Hindi? SHE smiled and said “ Vinash kale vipareet buddhi”. She started speaking in Hindi, I was not sure what was SHE speaking so I thought is it Hindi or some other language. SHE said “ Vinash kale vipareet buddhi” (Since I had a doubt in my mind). Then I asked her shall I dial Dr Deb, do you want to talk in Hindi with him, SHE said “Kuchnahi” (means Nothing in Hindi).


Then she started speaking in English and blessed me. “This day promotes you, encourages you give you stability and strength, love with all auspicious things in the world….”


Then SHE started looking at the books given by Dr Deb published by Brahmkumari related to God and soul. SHE said why you want to read these books, if you want to know anything I will tell you with explanations. One thing you should know is that these centers and peoples are not God, they can guide you to reach us. If you want to know about Hinduism in depth I will teach you step by step.


SHE sat in front of me in Hall and started explaining to me in Sanskrit and Tamil. I missed many points because I don’t know Sanskrit.


SHE started teaching: Stages of Life


“Ego sath vibra vabutha vadanthi” three times. First you believe God 100%. Your God may be Shiva, Vishnu or Devi or Jesus Allah or Buddha. This world was given to you by your God you think. Sometime your buddhi think right way but mind not. There are two lives here Lowkik (physical) and Alokik (spiritual). You can continue your spiritual work through Lowkik life. There are four stages : Brahmcharya, Grahasth, Vanprasth and Sanyas. Now you are in Brahmacharya stage. You have done this well, you can study about physical or spiritual subjects. You might have heard stories of Ramayan and Mahabharat, prices were sent to their Guru for education about everything they need.

Next stage is Grahasth , you might have heard stories about how to do this stage.

In The Vanprasth stage they go to the forest and pray to God, next stage they take Sanyas to get Mukti. But it is not necessary to go through all stages to get mukti. In olden times people got mukti even in Grahast stage.


Way to reach GOD

SHE continued, I have already told you there are four pathways to reach God 1. Sariya 2. Kriya 3. Yoga 3. Gyana. Man can reach God by choosing any one of these pathways. Sariya stages the relationship of God and man is like servant and Lord. The Kriya stage man is a child to God. Yoga stage man is friend to God and Gyan stage man is student to God.


Remember you can select any of these paths to reach God. Servant means you do some work for God. Kriya means puja like Brahmins do for God. Yoga you reach God with some distance, but Gyana means you sit near God and get all explanations from HIS mouth and gesture.


Sariya path give Salokya Mukti. Kriya path give Sameeba mukti, Yoga give Sarupya mukti, and Gyan gives Sayuchiya mukti which is the highest point. All path are given by God and are good, but gyan path is best to realize supreme reality. When you try to reach God through gyana you will get “Atmagyana” from a guru. Most of the time God comes as a Guru.


Now you are in the Gyana stage and should improve upon it. I will explain everything clearly.


Gayatri Mantra: SHE told that it is for Natural God Savitra which is different from Sun. SHE told the meaning in Tamil


Veda

Introduction

There are four Veda 1. Rig, 2 Yjur, 3 Sam and 4 Atharva. Rig was first and Atharva was last. These were given by god to sage Vasisth, Vamadeva, Atri, Bharadwaj, and Vishvamitra, who ketpt as shruti or memories to disaples.

Rig Veda teaches about natural Gods, Indra, Agni, Varun and Chnadra as main characters. Lord Shiva and Lord Visnu were minor Gods. Gayatri mantra has been used by Hindu as morning prayer since then. Savitur is a God who is different from Sun God.


Yajurveda has methods of Puja and Ygna. In this Veda there is “Satha rudram” or 100 names of Lord Shiva.

Sama Veda has mantra in the form of song. Lord Shiva’s muscical concept is also included.

Atharvaveda has medical therapy, and hypnotherapy.

Each Veda has four parts

1. Samhita; Vedic method in poetry form

2. Brahmanas ; Pooja method

3. Aryanas – stories told by sages in forest

4. Upnishad – is the supreme knowledge, can get this knowledge under guidance of Satguru or God as Guru.

Vedas help at all four stages of people Brahmcharya, Grahasth, Vanaprastha and Sanyas. Everyone may not pass through all these stages but can directly reach Sanyas if they have good Sanskar.

Through these 4 veda, 4 parts and 4 stages one can realize his real self and get Mukti.

1. Dharm, 2. Arth, 3. Kama and 4. Mukti.

Through Dharma one can accumulate material things for happiness but real happiness is inner which gives Mukti.

There is a difference between Mukti and Jeevanmukti.

She told me about 108 Upanishiad main 20 , Taitriya is important for me. There are 18 Puranas.



SHE entered my room and saw a book on stress management “ I am Stressed” SHE asked are you stressed? What is your problem? Then she asked me to go to bed and lay down. SHE said

My dearest Dura, close your eyes, don’t think or worry about anything. SHE took a peacock feather from our pooja room and started touching me from head to toe and singing a song “Bo Sambo siva sambothuyanbo “ then she explained about Saptaswara.


Saptaswar


She sat in meditation for some time and said that she will explain this in a practical way. We were talking in our main hall, she suddenly came towards me over the right ear and said something which I could not hear. She asked whether I could feel any vibration and I said yes and all my nerves started vibrating. She said this is the first swara formed by lord Shiva "Sa".

Again she said something and I could feel a vibration which was higher pitch than previous, she said this is "Pa".

Then she hold my left ear and told something which I could hear as "ri", then I could hear ga, ma, dha, ni,. She asked could you make out difference between these two sets of swaras. I said sa, pa have no parts or cannot be discriminated while other do. She said normal humans can't understand the vibration taught by Lord Shiva.

She asked do you know why sa and pa have no discrimination and others have. I said no. She said these two swaras were formed by Lord shiva as divine sound and others were formed with Pancha mahaboota.

She told there are two types of sould (Nada) Ahata and Anahata. Ahaat nada can be understood by normal human but not anahat which was understood by Sage Tyagaraja. I knew this. But she told that all sages cannot understand this without grace of Lord Shiva. Some can feel anahat nada but cannot explain to other. God only can copose this anahat nada. It is a ineer feeling.

Now you have eneted in gyan stage and know what is anahat nada. Me and Lord vishnu realized this from Lord Shiva first . It is a vast subject and this is just introduction.

Then she told me to close my eyes and sit in nishad and my body went into trance.

She said if you want to know more you will improve your Gyana stage. Satguru Thyagaraja got this knowledge from Lord Ram.

Music will help to improve your stage.

Then she explained about Lord shiva’s Bharatanatyam



Bharat natyam and Lord Nataraja


Lord Shiva has taught Bhartanatyam, when he dances it is called Nataraj.

Nataraj form explain five duties of Lord Shiva called "Panchkritya"

1. Sristi 2. Sthithi 3. Samhara 4. Throbhava 5. Anugraha

1. Sristi is creation symbolized by Damaru in his hand

2. Sthithi is symbplized by his abhayahara

3. Samhar is destruction smbolized by fire in his other hand

4. His right leg is over a sage Muyalaga whoe degraded Lord Siva once and symbolizes Throbava. Which means to give rebirth till atma realizes and reaches Mukti

5. Left leg on his left thigh symbolizes Anugraga. Those who realize the throbava Lord Shiv givs Mukti is Anugraga.

Sristhi is due to Maya and goes back to it .

I asked but Sristhi is by Brahma, Sthithi by Vishnu and Samhar by Rudra, how come Lord Shiva is doing all this?"

She replied Lord Shiva designate these duties to five Lords

Sristhi to Lord Brahma, Sthithi to Lord Vishnu, Samhara to Rudra or Shankar, Throbhava to Lord Maheswara, and Anurag to Sadashiva.

She asked, "Do you know 108 dance forms of Lord Shiva? I said I have seen pictures. She told you to see them, now you know how much you have to study. There are two types of life Lokik and Alokik. If you desire I will help you.

You have to fight with Maya all the time, it will disturb you it has strong power and sometime with ignorance you enter into cluches of Maya. It may take you in seconds, so try to be in touch of Supreem knowledge and God and meditated well


Vibhooti

Nowadays I apply Vibhuti in the morning and evening. SHE asked me “Why do you apply this?” I said this is a symbol of Lord Shiva. SHE asked do you know any other deeper meaning. I said no. SHE asked what happened to humans after death. I said ash. SHE asked what Vibhuti contains. I said some holy things which are burnt during puja. SHE said that is also one type of Ash. It is a reminder to us that one day we will also turn into ash.

Then I touched her feet and SHE blessed me with the Mahamritumjaya mantra.

Disappeared in thin air

We were talking in the hall. There are two photos, one of GoddessLaxmi over HER head and the other Ganaoathi on the opposite side wall. SHE looked at me for some time and I went into trance, SHE asked me to close my eyes. I was scared that gramdma may come anytime so I did not close my eyes and suddenly SHE disappeared in Laxmi's photo.

Within a few min grandma came. I served dinner to her and went for sleep. I was totally drained and not feeling like eating. Got up at 9.30am (normally I get up at 6) and without taking tea dressed and went out to find out WHO was SHE.

Discovering Devi

I went to the nearby Devi temple but it was not like HER. Took bus and went to Wellawatta without knowing where I am going. After getting down from the bus walked down the lane which was unknown to me and reached Hanuman temple. First I prayed Lord Ganapathi and then went around and stood in front of Saraswati metal statue. I was shocked since HER face was same like ONE who came yesterday wearing same Yellow sari and kumkum with santhana on her forehead. I was panicked and started chanting “Sagalagal valli sthothiram”. Dr Deb called me that time and I told him everything. I was emotional and started crying. I could not understand why I came to this temple there are other Devi temple in Colombo.

Returned home by one pm, and my grandma was waiting. Took a glass of juice and went to bed. Came back in the evening to see Dr Deb and told the whole incident.


Dear Mother


I was searching you everywhere, your lotus feet Devi

I think at all time

But the time has come

I was curious to reach

the enterence of Gyana

Sang vedic verses

every yuga yuga

I was searching everywhere


Kailash Devi

Why do my mind think about you?

What is the maya?

Is this a maya?


There is a change in my dream and real life

But I can see you in all changes

If your mercyfull eyes look me

My all sins and karma will fly

You are dancing in my mind

I think about you every seconds

Why?

Why do mind think about you?





More about Tandava Dance

19th June 2007


I asked for an excuse from Dr Deb and Dr Venketesh. At night she taught me more about the Tandava dance form. SHE said there are 108 Tandava dance forms, you can see them directly if you improve your stage. I asked about the Maheshwar and Sadashiva forms. I have seen other forms in the temple. SHE showed Maheswar form, it has four hands and one head and legs are like Daksinamurthy. Then SHE showed me Sadashiva form. It has five heads and tem hands and legs like Dakshinamurthy. It is difficult to see them from Lord Shiva now.

Then SHE explained seven Tandava explaining five duties of Lord Shiva. You can see only Panchakrithya because it was given by HIM in a happy mood.

1. Srikalika Tandava – Sristhi

2. Sri gauri and

3. Sanithya Tandava - Sthithi

4. Samhar Tandava – Samhara

5. Tripura Tandava – Trobava

6. Oordhav Tandava – Anugraha

7. Anantha thandava – all five duties


When Lord Shiva started dancing Rudra Tandava, those 107 forms were given, then I controlled him and at the end Ananth Tandava was given showing all five duties.

I requested HER to show atleast six Tandava forms. SHE said you will not be able to tolerate them due to low energy. Other 107 Tandava were given in the Agora stage. You cannot tolerate or see with your physical eyes. You already know Shiva’s Aghori form in Rudravam. Lord Shiva sits in Nistha. If you want to know you should improve your mind. You know about Kama thangana ( Lord Shiva burnt Kamdeva who disturbed his Nistha) in the Rudra Agora stage.


I have been stubborn from my childhood and wanted to know those dance forms in spite of HER advising me. I have seen one form and wanted to see six more. I have never seen Devi in Agora or angry form. I have seen her at the end of Navaratri in her Mahisasur mardini form but she smiled and blessed me. At last SHE told me experience is the best teacher and went off.

I talked with grandma and slept. Suddenly I saw a huge size fiery God or Giant or Ghost I can’t explain from floor to roof. I could see only Damaru in HIS hand which was surrounded by fire. It has no physical feature; suddenly one leg started moving towards its head. I shouted amma, amma. I thought Yamaduta had come to take my grandma, and then I fainted.

Next day at 1pm I opened my eyes, my body felt so tired, had a fever. Grandma was chanting “Kanthasasthi Kavacham” and gave me a cup of coffee with Panadol and sprinkled water on my face. I asked what happened. She asked, "Why did you shout at night, did you see a ghost? I was trying to wake you up in the morning, you have a fever so I did not disturb you. She sprinkled some holy water from Devi temple, and was chanting “Kanthasasthi Kavacham” since morning. I had a fever till the next day.

I was surprise to find a statue of Nataraja and a metal lamp sent by one of my friend Mattakilya who saw me asking Nataraj satue when she was sleeping last night. She is learing Bharatnatam and pray Lord Nataraja. She got it for me from Trichi India.

I prayed that satatue and asked pardon from Devi and HIM. During evening meditation Devi showed me a Mudra “Nirekshan” thumb touching little and ring finger and index and middle finger extended. SHE said you got “gurupavai” means inspecting students while teaching a group of students, one who is interested in getting supreme knowledge. I have already told you that you don’t have enough energy to see Rudram form.

Dakshinamuthi form has one of these things Sadabara, Sadabanda and Sadamandala, Sadamukuta. You must first try to know them. Knowing them you will know 108 Tandava forms. Now you have experienced, too much of anything is not good.

I asked for an excuse from her and told that SHE knows me well and can give what SHE feels is best for me. I want to live under your lotus feet.

I came on 22nd June Asthami for Lord Nataraj and gave the statue as a present to Dr Deb.


Sapta Mata Darshan ( 25th-26th June )


26 of June [Tuesday].my mother was worried about our problem and told some incidents to me. (We have a new car at Jaffna given by my uncle to my brother after he passed first year first class. One day it was taken by Army Commander and never returned back)

At night I saw a different form of devi. who had a human body, but face was like an animal, her two hands were abhaya mudra and the other two looked like abhaya mudra but fingertips were down position. She was in a pink saree. She told ''Thura don't worry about physical matters, if you worry about it you can't reach your goal, I decide all. your mother will get good things very soon. all are Maya. first try to understand this. I’ll help your mother. don’t worry about her. through you she will get good things soon.'' suddenly I felt our floor started to separate in two parts. she entered in that distance. I prayed her. I thought that SHE was Chaamunda.

I told this to Dr. Deb on 27th of June. On the 28th of June [Thursday] I was fasting. At night before I go to bed started to pray Chaamunda. I heard a sound from our floor. I got up from bed and kept my ear on the floor, where Chamundi entered on Tuesday. I started to sleep on the floor with a mat. I could hear some. 'Thura doesn't say Chaamunda. That was Vaarahi. who is one of Saptamata.

Saptamata protect the world, I’ll show those forms.’ at that moment one Mata who came on Tuesday appeared. She said' 'she is Vaarahi. 'She wore the same pink saree. Then she disappeared. Another Mata came with white sari. She sat on a swan. She also had four hands. which had Vedas, pearl gallant ,kamandala, and one ayutham. she said ''this is Brahmi''. she disappeared within a few minutes. Then one Mata came with a red saree. She sat on Rishabha. her hands had damaruga ,trisoola ,and abayahara, she said ''this is Maheswari''. other one came, she wore green color saree on peacock, her hands had abayahara, velayutha, and 2 other ayuthas, she said ''this is Kowmary''. another one came with yellow color saree, on Garud, her hands had Shankha ,Chakra, kathayutha and abayahara. she said ''this is vaishnavi''. .Next one came with orange color saree, her hands had skull ,lotus, and abayahara , she said ''this is chamundi'' finally a mata came with blue color saree on elephant.[white color elephant]Her hands had 2 ayuthas and abayahara SHE was Indrani.

Then all the suptamatas came at the same time and went round me and blessed me. Now I have started to sleep on the floor with a mat.


On 2nd July something happened in jaffna.3rd of July my mother asked me to do meditation. I live with spiritual activities except my sannyasa life.at night Vaarahi came again and explained what happened to my mother in Jaffna. Now she has started to go to Hanuman's temple. That is also an interesting incident. On the 4th of July, I got some Hindu philosophical matters.

Dr Deb also did not know; it is not there even Devi Bhagavatam. He called me later and told me that in the Varaha Puran there is a story of Demon Andhakasur being there and Lord Shiva asking to produce Astha Matrikas to kill him 1. Yogeshwari by Lord Shiva 2. Brahmi by Brahma 3. Vaishnavi by Lord Vishnu 4. Maheswari by Lord Rudra 5. Kaumaari by Kartikaya 6. Yami by Yama 7. Indrani by Indra and 8. Varahi by Lord Varah form of Lord Vishnu. Could not find any reference of Saptamata except one temple in TN having a statue of it.


5th of July a lady spoke with me about you (Deb). I thought that was your mother. But her physical features weren't like you. Her face cut also different from you. But that person like you a lot it might be your aunt or relatives. But she understands your spiritual life. Her skin color is higher than you, I thought that was dream. But on 7th also she spoke. I could hear her voice. I have no experience like this. I never spoke with a human being except my father, but I could hear my father's voice only. I couldn't see him.so many incidents happened as the way I didn't expect.


Messages from God 2004

September- December 2004


This is an interesting case of a young girl who came with a severe headache not relieved by any treatment. She became a messenger and communicated divine mission!!


Clinical History

Ms. Ano, a 25-year-old, tall, thin woman, working as an event manager, was admitted on August 24th with severe headache, vomiting, and fear with hyperventilation and alteration of consciousness. She was diagnosed with a psychogenic headache. First two days in the ward, she could not relax and was on a heavy dose of sedative and analgesic.

First Relaxation Session

August 28th

She went quickly into trance and saw her office. Initially, she was supported by her manager but later he started abusing her. Ran was also working in the same company and was Buddhist. He became friendly and started protecting her from her manager. They started dating without consent from their parents. Ran got a job in Bangladesh one year ago. She was sad and started communicating with him by email. Ash joined the company later and was Catholic, became her new friend. Her parents approved this relationship. But Ash was not like Ran, he did not care for her. He was more interested in his work. She was getting pressure from parents to get married, which she could not handle, and developed dissociative symptoms.

Relaxation Sessions

September-December 2004

31st August

She could go into deep relaxation and go back to her childhood. Saw her at age 4 praying. She went to the room and watched her grandparents' death. Someone was staring at her but could not see the details.

2nd September

Relaxation session

"Scared in the dark, two people are pulling me. Trying to move her left hand, Can’t see their face." I was not sure who was pulling her hands but she had severe pain in the shoulder after the session. Next day she recognized them as Ran and Ash, her two friends. She was feeling better after the session and wanted to continue.

Relaxation on September 4th

Who is there?

"Somebody is pulling my hands, (crying and moving hands from side to side) Right side is Ran and Left is Ash they are saying come to there side."

"Someone is looking from the front. There is light from all over his body. He is getting closer. He is rubbing my two shoulders. He is saying something. He is saying something not clear. Can’t see him clearly. He is whispering something to my ear."

"He said not to be scared, everything will be alright. He is saying that he has already sent one person to help me. Trust in that person. He is saying to reach out to someone to hold your hand."

Can you ask who that person is?

"But there is nobody. , there is no body. He says reach out he is there. He says he is a person with knowledge. Who helps many others like me? He says to reach out to that person he will help me. He says I know him but I don’t remember."

"He is saying he is tall, and you know him. He is gifted. More than he knows. Tell him, be humble. That he is the person who has saved many others. He said this is a message and have a faith. He says reach out he is there."

I held Ano's hand, "He is smiling. He says to open eyes." We were very happy after the session and I thought he must be her guardian angel. She did not remember anything after the session. I mailed her details of the session.


Relaxation 9th September


What is going on?

"They are pulling, crying and moving hand and head from side to side." Have they gone?

"They are still there. Crying and keeping hands on the right shoulder. They are not there."

Who is there? " Some person wearing white gown cannot see their face. There is light all over his body. He is coming to closure. He touched my face and said something."

"He is saying something that is not clear. I told him I cannot hear clearly. He says don’t listen with ear, listen with heart. He says with ear you listen, things you want to. Most people hear from their ear you should hear from your heart."

"He is saying something again. He is asking me whether I remember what he told me last time. But he says what he told me that day. He says I believe from the heart, But he is talking about a person. He is talking about someone. He said if I feel scared I should know whom to tell. He says he is there. Nobody knows other than him."

"He says it will be a difficult period. I should go through it after that there will be no regrets, and I should learn things I have never learned in school. He is asking whether I know that person. But I don’t know, he is scolding. He is a bit harsh. He says the person he has sent is near. He says he wants to say something."

"He is saying there is possibility of me becoming sick again, but that person will be here. Know and tell him to do whatever is necessary. He is asking is that person. Tell him yes he remembers everything" " That person is gifted and has vast knowledge. That person is very valuable and important. He will be a true example that all men will be look up to him."

"He is praising that person. He said to me to tell that person thank you and he will be blessed abundantly wherever he goes there will be light and nothing will harm and he is covered with great strength that nobody can touch him. To believe in that person and he will always be there for me and reach out for help, he will be there. "

"He says till I believe with my whole heart that I will see what I feel from my heart I will not recover. Tell that person to remember what I said. This is a favor he is asking and strengthening me and for anything I need he will help me. I will be able to make my decision on my own after sometime."

"He will always be there for me. He is three in one person. I asked him what that meant. He did not say anything. He says just to think again. Not to ask without thinking. He is representative of the strong force he will be with me and that he is asking what is one in three. He is scolding me. "

"He says all humans are not the same, all are not gifted with something 1. He helps people 2 he treats all as children and loves them and is concerned and understands them. 3 He is a person who everyone can call a friend. He is a helper father and friend indeed"

"He is asking to remember what he said. And when I feel sick, reach him for help."


"He said your heart should be warm like your hand. He says He will give the next message some other time. To trust in him and he will always Be my guardian he is asking to pray."

"He says there are two guardian angels. I have one from birth and another (Dr Deb) who is helping me. He says to remember the second guardian for blessing. He says "Next message will be delivered soon."


"He will tell next time why he chose (Dr Deb) to help others, he says thank you again. He smiled and gave a kiss on my head and asked to remember that person, not to have any fear he will always be there. He was not there, he smiled and went."


11th September Relaxation

Today I wanted to make her sit to record the session, however after closing eyes she started telling me she was pulled by two and then HE started talking through her. HE wanted to know why I made her sit and not lie down.


HE asked her to remove the pillow which she was holding and then instructed to go up the bed with eye closed. Then he asked me whether I remember what he told and asked me to concentrate from heart not from ear and not to write but listen. He told me how I was troubled when I was entering medical school and how he changed the age bar from October to December to become eligible to give a pre medical test. HE wanted me to become doctor and come to take care of Ano in Sri Lanka

HE told me that Ano is doing regular prayer for everybody in the morning and he told me what prayer she is doing for me, my wife and son. HE asked me not to tell everything to Ano and especially about her illness that she would again fall sick and has to come to the hospital for 5 days. She should not be with anyone HE will be there with her and will take care of her. On the 3rd day I will be there at night and then one day she can stay and go back on the 5th day. This should be only told to his brother.


HE also said that one day both of us will become great doctor and many patients will be benefited.


HE loves Ano and asked me to take care of her. Not to hurt her and told that she was sad when I told her that I had messed up her life. She was not looked after by parents and she was missing father who was working out in the UAE. Mother has fed her for 2 weeks due to bronchial asthma. She has been weak since childhood.


HE said that my wife is very good at heart and asked to introduce to Ano. Ano was very surprised to see my wife and keep on telling everyone that she is very beautiful.


Night of Messages 13th September


This morning Ano came and she was not looking well. I asked her how she was. She said "I am not supposed to tell you". She was not in full sense someone was telling her in her ear.


After relaxation I was waiting for HIM to talk. HE asked me "Dr Deb - are you ready? I am waiting for you to ask.

He told me what happened in the home of Ano on Sunday when HE appeared in front of Ano and seeing HIM she fainted then HE spoke through her to her parents. HE asked why his cross was not clean and why HIS Mother’s photograph has cobwebs. HE told Ano to remove cobweb from HIS holy Cross and keep HIS Mother respectfully. She was tired after seeing him.


"She will be sick again and will get admitted with headache and pain. HE told me to admit Ano for 5 days and keep her alone for the first two days when HE will be there with him. On the 3rd day I should spend the whole night with her. On the fourth day she should be alone. HE will look after her during the day and night and not allow anyone to stay with her."

HE told me how HE helped me to get into medical college when I was falling short of 1 month to become 17year age limit for Pre Medical test. That year miraculously there was change in the rule and last date of age limit changed from October to December.


At 1am I got a call that Ano’s father that she had severe headache. They came rushing to the hospital and got admitted.


I took her directly to a room and while relaxing her, HE alerted me about her more suffering during which I have to take care, to stay on the 3rd day with her and two days leave her alone. He called father who was standing outside and communicated the same.


I was instructed to give an injection for pain and sleep which she would refuse but would take on insisting.

After the session she had a headache, and she was given Tramadol and Diazepam and went to sleep.


14th September


When I went to see her in the morning. HE conveyed to me how she fell down from bed twice seeing HIM and had a nosebleed. She will go through headache, memory loss and pain in the spine but she will be alright.


On the 13th night parents were awake and praying when they saw the nodding face of Jesus changing to Ano. They were also advised to bring rosary and cross for Ano.


HE wanted to make her like a mountain so nobody could shake her, she had to undergo pain to relieve the burden of the sin of parents. She would get messages from Mother Marry in October.


In the evening she was very scared, HE requested me to stay with her at night and promised that I would be fresh next morning. I was asked to go home , get cleaned, meditate and come back. Due to some operational problem she was shifted to my home taking consent from the parents. She slept comfortably at home. We decided to sleep at 1.30am, she got up and HE told “No no this is not the time to sleep you will get a message”.


HE told me that my wife is very pretty and her eyes are like HIS mother, her heart is like her face, she is blessed and there is another person at home (my mother in law) she is also blessed. HE told her name starts from T and it stands for Trinity that means holy light, son and Father in Catholic religion.

HE told me that I was chosen to become a doctor in childhood and prepared to come here for this day. HE told both of us will shine and she will be an example to others and she is holding the family. She is very kind hearted and shall give more to people.


HE asked me how I think differently from others. I explained how I feel about not only treating the body but also the soul too. HE explained why I was chosen and blessed. "You do not know your potential. HE said to go ahead. What I feel is right, people may laugh and criticise now but will follow you later."


"When HE stepped into my house he found it was blessed and there was no evil energy. HE advised me to do rituals according to our religion to prevent any bad energy from entering."

"HE spoke about my mother and how she prays for all of her children. Because of her blessing only we are like this today. HE said my father is with him and looking at us. HE also spoke about my son and told us that he has some exams he will do well and shine our name, ask him to have faith and told he is missing us to call today."


HE asked me to ask any question. I was not sure what to ask, then HE told me to ask whatever comes first in my heart.


Q1. Why do people fight for religion, and say that is the only way of practice?

Ans: God is one and no religion teaches to fight and wrong things it is people what they interpret. Buddhism is not a religion it is a way of life or philosophy. Since lord Buddha led a good life as price he taught how to lead life. He said in Hinduism there are several gods and the same in Catholics.


Q2. Why is there terrorism?

Ans: Wicked people and evil force are responsible. (Terrorism is war between two evil forces and both lose, Holy war is between good and bad and good wins.)


Q3 when the soul starts or takes birth?

Ans: It is difficult to comprehend by the human brain but it is long back. Read Job 13 in Bible.


Q4. Is there rebirth in Christianity?

Ans. Reincarnation in Buddhism and Hinduism was explained. Then HE told Christian reincarnate in MY Kingdom.


He thanked me since it was the first time she was happy and smiling.


15th September


Next morning her parents came and took her to the ward. I was sleepy when I went to the hospital at 8.30am. The mother of a doctor who was suffering from breast cancer and had surgery done, was waiting for Reiki.


I was expecting to sleep while giving Reiki. As soon as I closed my eyes a strong light came from a triangle 7-8 feet above my eyes from the left side . Below this triangle in a black background within an oval shaped light I saw rapidly changing images of Hindu gods and goddesses. Below them I saw faces of saints of different religions rotating fast without an oval circle of light around them. On the left side there was a golden OM moving in the sky and on the right side the Golden Cross. I saw various celestial patterns. My sleep and tiredness vanished.

Ano was discharged that night and went home with relief from her symptoms.


Divine Dreams of Ano (mails, October)

After messages from Lord Jesus Christ, I was excited and spiritual blessings started pouring in my life. It was very hard to believe anyone with my experiences, since I was not born a Christian or Baptized.

Ano was going to work and happy, she was sending several emails every day, most of them were about some divine messages. She also had a succession of divine dreams filled with messages. I have edited the mails to make them short without losing the connotation.

Dream 1: October 2ndth 2004 : Lord Smiling


Ano saw during prayer the statue of Jesus suddenly change and was smiling at her. This had happened so many times before also but she could not believe it. When she went to the hall and picked a bible verse this is what it said "Praise and sing to the Lord and tell all about his wonderful acts".

Dream 2: October 3rd 2004

Ano saw Jesus coming to her room, looking at her and went, once he had left there was prayer on her table with his picture. She could not describe the image and did not remember the prayer.


Dream 3: October 5th 2004

She was crying in a dark place when Mother Mary appeared, she said she knows why she was crying and SHE said that SHE understands how Ano feels. Ano was thinking of a person who was very close to her heart and was feeling sad.

Mother Mary said "To leave everything to her son (Jesus) that he will take care of that person and for me to pray the way I use to do. She said that everything will be done according to God's will and for me to have faith. Mother Mary said that she knows how much this person means to me because she said that she sees the gratitude that I have for this person. Another thing she said is not to get hurt for the slightest thing because the Lord doesn't want to see his child sad. She said that my prayers will be answered and to have faith, every good thing that I wish for this person during my prayers God has accepted she said. At last she said "Pray everyday child because you can make a difference". Those words really touched her heart and she got up at 2am and prayed for about 15 minutes and I went to sleep again.

Dream 4: October 7th 2004

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Ano could not understand this dream where she was walking with a person along a path. She could not see his face, but he was tall, well dressed and very calm. He was holding her close to him and she was keeping her hand around his waist while talking.


Then they stopped walking, and she saw in front another long road. He looked at her and smiled. He took his hand away and he left her there and went on his way. Ano started crying telling him not to leave her alone because she was feeling scared, he came back and touched her cheek and said "do not fear".


Ano didn't move she was crying so hard, then suddenly Mother Mary appeared SHE came close to Ano and said "stop crying remember I told you that my son doesn't want to see his child with tears" she hold her close and was hugging her , SHE wiped Ano’s tears and kissed her forehead and said "don't cry you have not been abandoned, he will come back pray for him and wish him good. Though he's not there, don't think that he has forgotten you, he's always thinking of you and will always look after you, though you don't see these things he will be there when you need him most." SHE continued "you are a gift for him and he cannot forget you, the bond my son has created between you and him is far greater than anything and no human been can understand, except my Son, you and him will know what a family relationship you share, remember you have a mission and so does he and my son will strengthen both of you. Have faith. You will not remember who he is but he himself will tell you that it was him who was in the dream, it won't take a long time, and very soon he will tell you. Remember a big day is coming, pray for him so that he will be guided."

Ano did not know who SHE was referring to until I explained to her that it was me walking with her in the dream.

Dream 5: October 10th 2004: Divine Mission

Ano was praying in a room and when she opened eyes, she saw Mother Mary right beside her. She asked "Are you Happy since you know now, the person who was in your dream" Ano replied "Yes". Then SHE asked her to get up, and then SHE hugged & cuddled Ano and said "My Son is so happy to see you smiling"

SHE told Ano to be strong and she should always speak to her in prayers and she should tell HER all the problems because SHE will guide through them. SHE said "Remember I told you that you are not alone in this mission, that there is a person who is also involved in this & he will be your guide. My Son has a message for you, tell the blessed one that there is a message for him, and just tell him he knows how he can talk to my Son. He knows and he will tell you how, in the hour needed you will help him" SHE said " The message that my Son wants to convey is very important and should be looked into." SHE said that I should not worry about it, that you know how you should talk to him but she repeated again and said "In the hour of need, remember you should help him and in return he will help you"

Then before SHE left SHE came close to Ano looked into her eyes and said "Blessed are the eyes that see God's creation for they will show others what beauty it carries and blessed is the one who guides for he will be showered with blessings and with love of the almighty" Then SHE kissed on Ano’s forehead and whispered to her ear "Remember to help in the hour of need, do not hesitate because you are gift and will be guided"

"Tell him, that he is chosen out of everybody by my Son and he will be glorified in the presence of my beloved Son and you my child never doubt him at any moment since he's the chosen one to guide you in your mission"

Ano got up confused and did not understand what SHE said "Remember to help him in the hour of need".

Dream 6 : October 11th 2004 – Meditating Yogi

Ano was in her room looking for a prayer in one of her prayer books, all of sudden close to her she saw Mother Mary standing with her and for the first time she saw Jesus. SHE asked "What are looking for, my child" Ano answered "I am looking for a prayer" Then SHE said "Books are there to guide the people who don't know to talk with my Son and to teach the people who don't know the prayers but why are you looking for prayers inside a book? All you have to do is pray to my Son in your own words, if you don't remember just close your eyes and ask the Holy Spirit to guide you. All the prayers are in your heart, the prayers that come from your heart is more greater than any other prayer"


Then Jesus came close and touched Ano’s head, HE took her hand placed it on HIS heart & asked "My little girl can you feel how much I love you, the love that I have for you is something that you will never understand, stay with me & be blessed with my love"

Then Mother Mary came and said that SHE wanted to show Ano something, SHE asked her to sit and close her eyes, then Mother Mary and Jesus came and sat beside Ano. Suddenly Ano saw a circle of a glowing light, inside that circle she saw me very calm, seated crossed legs with closed eyes. Then Jesus asked "what do you see?" Ano said that she saw Dr Deb. HE said "no you don't call your guardian and your second father by his name" Then HE asked me "what do you see and what is he doing" Ano replied that he is seated with eyes closed"


Then Lord Jesus said "Remember I told you to help him in the hour of need" Ano replied "yes I remember" then HE asked "My child then why didn't you help him"

Ano told HIM she did not know how to help him, she was not a very useful person to anybody then Jesus said "All my creations are blessed and useful and out of all, the two of you are my most valuable creations" then he asked Ano to convey this message to me.

These were HIS words ``Tell my son he's here for a great mission and you are there to help him and in the same way he's here to help you. He knows how he can get the message that I want to give him, tell him when two are there in a mission why struggle alone, reach out to each other and continue the mission that I have given , I'm waiting till that day to glorify him. There will be certain things that you my child and my son will have to do alone but in this I want you to help each other"

Then HE told Dr Deb with brightness in his face and a great smile with happiness "tell him that I have given him a certain thing as an experiment tell him to use it HE said that HE wants to talk to me "

Then HE asked Ano to open her eyes. Once she opened her eyes HE was not there but Mother Mary was there SHE said "Do as my Son asked you. Help in the hour of need and whatever your guardian asks you to do, do it at once and without hesitation. I will be there to guide the two of you in every aspect, have trust in me and in my son" she said this message is not only for her but for me as well.``

Daydreaming

Everyday when Ano goes to office she prays "Prayer for Protection" . Day before after office returning home walking suddenly she heard a voice saying "STOP" Ano stopped walking and not to take a step forward, then she saw a huge black snake crossing front of her. In the prayer there is part which says "God will put his angels in charge of you, to protect you wherever you go. They will hold you up with their hands, to keep you from hurting your feet on the stones. You will trample down lions & snakes, fierce lions & poisonous snakes ect....." That very moment Ano thanked the Lord for saving her.

Ano did not understand the messages, and she was told not to question me but to do as I tell her to. She was asking me if there was anything that she could do. Ano was wondering whether I was doing some scientific research.

Dream 7: October 12th 2004

Ano saw Mother Mary and Jesus SHE said "Yesterday was the day of the last apparition at Fatima, for you my child I will come to you till you fully fulfil my son's wishes. Both my son and I are waiting till you and your guardian full fill our wish"

Then SHE said "Tell him not be disturbed when he's asked to do my son's wish no difficulty will strike him and tell him not to fear of barriers because when he 's serving my son the burdens that come his way is nothing at the end of the task" SHE continued "When you do good deeds people will criticize you but in my eyes you are doing the best for everybody, when there are difficult paths and decisions that you have to take have faith in me and do everything, the person who have faith in me cannot be trampled or confronted by anyone, this message is for both of you and specially to you my child"

October 20th 2004 – Messages in prayer service


Ano's Prayer Service and Messages

Ano went to a prayer service, where the speaker told her to surrender to God and believe in Jesus's name and power. He also said that if she asked God for any wish in Jesus's name, it would be granted, but she should have strong faith that it would be granted through Jesus's son's name.

Last year at a prayer meeting, the preacher said there was a girl in her mid-twenties with relationship problems. He advised her to trust Jesus, who would guide her and help her surrender to Him. Ano did not understand the divine mission and how to ask for help. She was not very keen to give messages and her emails dropped. She went out of the country to work and lost touch.

Following years, I received more messages from different patients to understand the divine mission.