Sunday, March 13, 2016

Search for Bhimasankar Dham @ Guwahati Assam Part 2

Ever since my last post on Bhimasankar Dham (BSD) there is growing awareness and development around the holy Shrine. After my translocation to North Guwahati in 2012 , visit to Dham has become infrequent. 2013 I found a new Ganesh Mandir on the way to Dham averting all four wheelers beyond. With ever increasing devotees and bamboo barriers it is difficult to freely visit the Shrine like before. 
New Ganesh Mandir on the Way to BSD 2013
Bhimeswar ? or Bhimasankar? Dham 2013

Devotees 2013

New Gate to BSD Jan 2016

Devotees in Jan 2016
On my last visit in Jan 15th 2016, found gigantic parking place, thumping crowd, free lunch and new Gate to Dham. 

New Dimension 

On 27th Feb there was a forward mail from http://www.shivshankar.in/ by Mr Pankaj Das, refuting the place as Bhimasankar Dham and asked me to visit Real Bhimasankar Dham near Vashista Ashram. He passed on this write up throwing light on Bhimasankar Dham.
"Sri Sri Bhrigugiri Maharaj, after completing 12 years of intense sadhana, had established his ashram near Vaishistha cave and it is called Panchakanya Dham on Kshobhak  parvat near Guwahati.  This was the sacred tapobhumi of Vashistha Muni, Viswamitra Muni and Brighu Muni. Bhrigu muni is the father of Shukracharya. Brighu Muni gave darshan to Bhrigugiri Maharaj after completing his 5080 years of tapas on the day of complete solar eclipse in the year 1980 (February 16th) and entered the body of Bhrigugiri Maharaj, to complete his tasks for which he needed a human body.  This is how Brighu name was added to Maharaj’s name.  
In the Shiva Purana it is mentioned that Bheemashankar Jyothirlinga is in Kamrup (Guwahati, Assam).  It is on the Dakini parvat that Lord Shiva appeared as a divine light to protect his great devotee King Kamarupeswar of Kamrup, from the demon King Bheemasura. The name of the Dakini parvat was changed to Kshobak parvat after the appearance of Lord Bhima Shankar, who was in extreme anger (Kshob) while killing Bheemasura. Later, the Dakini Parvat came to be known as Kshobak parvat.  Even today the Bheemashankar Jyothirlinga on the kshobak parvat is worshipped in the Panchya Kannya Dham.  Except for a few sadhus and evolved souls this fact about Bheemashankar Jyotirlinga, at Kshobak (Dakini) parvat, in Panchakanya dham, near Vashistha Temple, Guwahati, remained unknown to the general public – may be for some divine reason.
Sri Sri Brigugiri Maharaj
Dwadash Jyotirling book in Asami 1984
Bhrigugiri Maharaj has written several books on spirituality, rather, more so, on its clarification on various age-old mistaken concepts & beliefs with integral scientific basis. His deep insight into the Vedas, Upanishads and Itihasas (epics) has revealed many sacred hidden truths from these treasures.  These revelations are possible only by a realized Maha Yogi (Maharshi).  This booklet (Bheemashankar Jyotirlinga) is a part of the Book  named “Dwadash Jyotirlinga” written  in Assamese by Bhrigu Giri Maharaj in the year 1984, with few additional words for clarification on the “Bheemeswar”, which is only an associate  linga (Upalinga) of the main Bheemashankar Jyotirlinga, that is presently being worshipped at Pamohi near Guwahati. The truth revealed to Sri Sri Bhrigugiri Maharaj about the actual site of Bheemashankar Jyotirlinga has been made open now to the all.  Let us all get the darshan & blessings of Bheemashankar Jyotirlinga.
II BHEEMASHANKAR II
Regarding Bheemashankar Jyotirlinga few different opinions have arisen. This may be, but these opinions do not have basis either on mythological history or on newly found spiritual revelation.  Taking the old historical records as the guiding path it is possible to discover the facts anew through spiritual insight. That means, just like checking the correctness or incorrectness of an equation by tallying the result with the result list, new discovery on the basis of direct spiritual insight is checked and reconfirmed with the old ones – the historical records.
It is believed by some that the place of Bheemashankar is situated on the Sajya mountain on the bank of the  river Bheemanadi in Maharastra. Others say that a big temple, situated at Uzzankat in Nainital district, is the Bheemashankar. But, the most authentic mythological accounts on Shiva, the Shiv Puran,  says about it as:

The folklores in different parts of Kamrup state also feed the same regarding Bheemashankar. Long ago, there was a Demon (Rakshas) named Bheem who was born with the seed of  Demon (Rakshas) Kumbhkarna  in the womb of Demoness (Rakshasi) Karkatee, who was a torturer for all creatures and anti-religious possessing limitless powers. They lived in the Sajya mountain. After the son of Dasharatha, Sri Ram, killed the dreaded Kumbhkarna, Karkatee took her son and started living there. One day Bheema asked his mother, who is my father? Where does he live? Karkatee said, your father is Kumbhkarna, the brother of the demon king Ravana. He came to me one day. Sri Ram has killed him. I have not seen Lanka. My father’s name is Karkat and mother’s name is Puskasee. I was married to a Demon (Rakshas) named Biraadh. Ram killed him too. After the death of my husband, I lived with my father and mother. One day my mother & father  started proceeding towards  Muni Mahatapa Suteekshna to devour him. Angered, the Muni burnt both of them to ashes and since then I had to live alone. In that time Kumbhkarna came to this mountain and had sex with me. After your birth, I lived here only for you. Hearing all this from his mother he became very angry. He started pondering on how to bring destruction to Hari. Thinking thus, he started doing penance for Brahma. In this way, Bheem got absorbed in tapasya for thousand years. Standing on one leg with raised arms and looking at the Sun, he started meditating on Brahma. Such severe penance (tapasya) resulted in causing radiation of fire-bursts from his head and the fire started engulfing the gods. The gods became restless and took shelter at the feet of Brahma and implored, the lord-father, we are started getting devoured by the fire coming out from the evil soul Bheem’s severe penance. You must  immediately give him his desired boon  and save us, otherwise,  the whole lot of gods will get burnt to complete destruction.  Hearing the prayer of gods, the lord-father Brahma moved in his swan vehicle, and stood before  Bheem and spoke: “devotee! I am pleased with your  penance (tapasya). Tell what boon you want”. Hearing Brahma’s word, the demon (Rakshas) Bheem spoke: “lotus-seated one, if you want to give me boon, then, give me limitless power”. Thus spoke, the demon surrendered at Brahma’s feet. Constrained, Brahma gave that boon. Maddened with the power of Brahma, Bheemasur started torturing human beings and gods. First, Bheemasur captured the king Kamrupeswar and took away the kingdom and captivated the king in an isolated place.

Highly devoted king, under captivity in the isolated place, along with his wife, Dakshina, took bath with pure emotion and installed the physical Shivlinga and started doing puja (prayer) with single-minded devotion.


On the other side, Bheemasur jumped over the gods. Capturing the kingdom of gods, Bheema expatriated all the gods. Leaving their kingdom the gods then went to the bank of the river Mahakoshi and started doing puja of  lord Maheswar, the father of gods. Pleased with the invocation of Rishis and gods the lord Maheswar appeared before them  and said, gods, I’m satisfied, take  your desired boon. The gods and the Rishis, thus telling all the stories of Bheemasur, sought  the way  to free themselves from this danger.
Shiva, the lord of gods said: “ gods, not only you, Bheemasur has tortured my dearest devotee Kamrupeswar also. Hence, in this matter, I myself will take measure. You go back to your own places without any fear”. Saying thus, the benefactor lord left for dispelling the grief of the devotee along with the first Gana (Ganesha). Meantime, the servants of Rakshas informed Bheem the news of King’s Shiv adoration:
“Oh great king! The captivated king Kamrupeswar has installed a physical ‘Shiv Linga’ and is doing puja, absorbed in meditation for your imprecation. Therefore, please do whatever is proper”. Hearing the servant thus, Bheemasur got angered with fire and proceeded towards the Prison with his soldiers to kill the king and saw that the king is absorbed in Shiv puja. Bheemasur roared with anger and asked: “oh king, what all this you are doing. Tell me the truth; otherwise I will give you the punishment of death now”. The king was so absorbed in Shiv-puja that he was not perturbed by even thunder like threatening of Bheem and told the truth: “oh Rakshas king, I’m doing Shiv puja with this physical ‘Shiv-linga’. The compassionate Shiv is present here in this linga. I’m a low person and therefore He is not lenient towards me and is not giving blessing for my welfare. His promise is there to kill the torturer of his devotees and protect the devotees. The promise of Shankar is unshakable and He will definitely do it. With this faith I’m doing his puja. Now, you can do whatever you desire”. Hearing the king, Bheem mocked: “I know your Shankar, what he will do to me; my forefather Dashanan had installed Shankar as his servant. With this power of Shankar you want to win victory over me. You are trying to look for the tortoise egg in the cavity of a tree.  Till the time your protector, Shankar, does not come face–to-face with me, your delusion will remain. But, when you see, you will understand all. You immediately remove all your mental delusions along with these garbage of symbolic-linga etc.  Otherwise you will see what power I’m possessing in my body”. Hearing the proud words, the king said: “oh Rakshas king, I can remove Shankar, the lord of the universe, considering him to be low. But, he is the most noblest, he is great. He will never leave me”.  Bheem laughed aloud at king’s sayings and said: “after losing your kingdom the way you have become beggar, you have become insane, in the same way  your Shankar is also intoxicated. Shankar is highly earthly. He moves  with  the begging bag for his own belly.  What will he understand about the knowledge of ‘Yog’. If he had the power to do good to you, your status would not have been so today. Even then, your delusion has  not gone away. Hence, along with your Pravu, you-deluded will also be finished from this world and the world will be made completely delusion-free for the future”. Thus said, the great powerful Bheemasur fired lethal weapons at the king. Just in a moment, great destruction came upon, making the earth dark and there arose the frightening thunders. And with a divine light,  Rudradev appeared from the physical Shiv-linga with the flood light of thousand suns. Rudradev said, “I’ve appeared as Bheemashankar to protect Hansmantra. I’m vowed to protect my devotee”.
Thus said, Rudradev, the  stealer of the world, destroyed the weapons fired by Bheemasur. The fierce battle started between Bheem and Rudra.
Gods got wonderstruck in seeing the horrific scene of the battle. Unable to sustain the weight of the fierce Rudra, the gods of all directions became shattered and started crying. The sea, the mountain, the hills, the planets and stars got disturbed. The Brahma and gods got astonished. They became worried more on why Rudravev is not killing Bheem when He could easily kill him. Thus said, the gods approached Narad, the Tribikram, begging for help. At the behest of gods, Narad went to the battlefield and prayed to ‘trita-prahari Hara’, Rudradev, and said, lord! Please destroy this evil immediately and bring peace to the world. Hearing the prayer of Narad, Shiv roared and moved along with the soldiers and killed Bheemasur to ashes. Nobody could see where the ashes fell after flying. Rudradev’s anger did not cool down even after destroying the Rakshas. This splinter of Anger became fire and spread to the forest and jungles and from it various medicinal trees were created. From these medicinal trees, transformed and transmuted, the imprecations of  ghost-ghoul, demon (pishach) get removed. Not only this, there is no task in the world which cannot be accomplished with the help of these medicinal stuff. Kamrup is famous as the kingdom of alluring illusion and magic. (the work of Maron, lukayon, Mohan and Jeeyon etc. are accomplished by this magic science. Some part of this magic science is still prevalent in human-society living in the upper part  of this mountain-chain and its use is happening always. With the help of ‘Rupantor’ science, people take the form of ferocious animal, like tiger etc. to take revenge, with ‘Mohan’ science, subduing one  into his will in an act  ‘Bashikaron’, with ‘Maron’ science, killing the enemies etc. – all these activities of imprecations are still running in full-swing. There is no comparison of these medicinal trees and creepers. Medicinal pandits, sadhus and sanyasies  from different part of India use to collect the medicinal stuff from this mountain daily. Raksharishi Dashanan (Ravana) started the first application of this science and won the universe – with his penance (tapasya) in this mountain-range, taking the blessings on his head. With the passage of time, due to lack of discipline, the utility of this science has become diminished, but, however, its active-portion is still prevalent today among the human society living in the nook and corner of this mountain. This science can be revived by some  renouncers (tyagi) who desire to do sadhana for this by his penance (tapasya). The whole moving & unmoving universe got terrorized by seeing the ferocious fire of Anger of Rudradev. All the gods & rishis kneeled down and prayed to  the Devadidev Hara and said, Pravu, you are the bestower of bliss, the Isha, supremely composed and you bestow happiness to all people. This kingdom is full of grief & suffering. This medicinal stuff is pain-giving.  You are all joy-giving. Therefore, you remain present in this place so that with your presence, this suffering land becomes joyful. All the pain will vanish and become joyous after having darshan in this place. You become famous as ‘Bheemashankar’. 
The soul of the universe, ‘Hara’ got pleased with the prayers of gods and relinquishing the anger & disappointment became calm and started living there in the form of a ‘Linga’.  Due to causing agitation ( ‘kshobh’)  to the lord of destruction, this  place has been named as ‘Kshobhak’ and the name of ‘Hara’ the stealer of the universe, became ‘Harak’ or ‘Heruk’. ‘Ham’, in source, means ‘Sky’. That means, ‘Ha’ means ‘Sky’.  Sky is vastness as ‘Bheem’ ; that is why the eight-armed statue (murty) of ‘Hara’ is worshipped as: “ OM Bheemaya aakash murteye namah”
            From the world of maya & suffering, sustained & nurtured by ‘Hari’, he who takes away the creatures (Jiva) to deliver salvation into divine ‘Self-form’ is ‘Heruk’ or ‘Hara’. He is the ‘Mahakaal’, the creator of triple dimension of ‘Time’.  His form is space (vyom), Nothingness (shunya), sky (aakash), He is ‘Ha’ of  ‘Brhma’. He is complete & total, undiminishable, vowel and Him only, we call ‘Ishwar’. Because, He is :
“om purna-madaha purnam-idam purnat purnam-udachatey
Purnasya purnamadaya purnameyabo aboshishatey”.

As per the request, Herukeswar Rudradev established his seat in the form of ‘linga’  after which Indra and other gods took their respective seats  and the daughter of Himadri, Bhagawati Durga, taking the five facet form, having equal potency as Rudra, started serving the father of gods, the Devadidev, with devotion.  That is why the goddess here is virgin & highly potent.
In this way, thirty three crore gods took their seats at ‘Kshobhak’ around Rudradev at the centre and settled there.  As per the order of Rudradev, the river ‘Saridwara’ Ganga came down from the hair-lock of Neelkantha to the earth taking the name of Kanta. Gods established a divine pond there for taking daily bath. This pond is great. Taking bath in this pond and worshiping the goddess, one gets freed from evolutionary birth cycle (yoni-bhog), means, one becomes equivalent to divine.
 Seeing the industrious spirit of the gods, the agitation of Rudradev became calm and he started living there in the form of ‘Jyotirlinga’. Worshiping Rudradev, the dispeller of  untimely-death, man can get freed from the untimely death and degeneration and other incurable diseases. By bathing Rudra with curd, honey & ghee and then bathing ‘Mahakaal’, in his own natural form, with milk and sacrificing an apple, a man can get rid of all kinds of incurable diseases. After the darshan of the great goddess Kamakhya and then taking bath at Urbashi, Umabhairav Umananda is to be worshiped and then after taking bath in the great pond ‘Kanta’, ‘Panchayonya’ (Panchakanya) and Herukeswar should be worshiped. After that, taking bath in the Amrit pond (kund), a man can have the darshan of the great sage Bashistha after which darshan of Vishnudev in the Bhagawan  Mountain can be had and with it unlimited ‘Punnya” can be earned. The provision for puja of Herukeswar, with  ‘bhairav mantra’ and the provision for puja of goddess (devi) with the mantra of Tripurbala or Kameswari are existing.


In the Mahashivratri, keeping fast, one who worships Bheemashankar, he gets rid of all suffering and all his desires get completely fulfilled.
            In the southern part of Guwahati, in the Sandhyachal mountain lies the Ashram of Bashistha Muni. Just 300 meters (approx) away from this Ashram lies the Bheemashankar Jyotirlinga  in the Panchakanya dham in the ‘kshobhak’ mountain. Apart from daily puja in every chaturdarshi night, chatur-prahar puja of Herukeswar Rudradev is also performed. 

Bheemeswar:  ‘Upa-Linga’ of Bheemashankar Jyotirlinga.

                Bhagwan Shankar’s agitation (kshob) sparked fire and burnt Bheemasur to ashes and for this reason that mountain had been named as ‘Kshobak’. East to Kshobhak is ‘Sandhyachal’, in north-east is ‘Bhagwan’, in west ‘Baman’ and in north ‘Durjaya’ & ‘Barah’. These were the land of meditation - ‘tapobhumi’: Bashisht in Sandhyachal, Soot and other Rishis in Bhagwan mountain, in kshobhak, Bhrigu, in Baman Viswamitra, Gautam Rishis etc. after Baman avatar. Western part of Durjaya was the tapobhumi of Markandeya, Urva and Shukracharya.  From the northern part of this mountain chain to ‘Nilachal’ is the great Barah Mountain. In this mountain only there happened the avatar of ‘Barah’. In this mountain only Rajarshi Seerdhaj did Vishnu sadhana and then after, his son, Rajarshi Narakasur, established the capital and did penance (tapasya) there. Rajarshi Naraka only, at the behest of Vishnu, did shakti-sadhana in the northern part of Nilachal and awakened the daughter of Himadri and made her famous as ‘Kamakshi’.
                          There is one ‘associate-Linga’ (Upa-Linga) of Bheemashankar  in this Barah mountain. His name is Bheemeswar. (Bheemeswar is situated near the village presently called as Pamohi).  During his sadhana, Naraka did sadhana for Bheemeswar also. He used to travel from the capital situated near the Durjaya in the northern part of Barah to Ranipur (presently Rani), where his queens (Rani) lived,  by horse and elephants through a plain road running along the bank of the sea (presently Deepor Beel) and passing beside Bheemeswar  through the lower part of Chakardaur. The present place, Rani, was the place for the queens. Naraka had many queens and 1600 virgin girls. (Sri Krishna took these girls after killing Naraka and kept them at Harialee (Haryana) – these were the 16 hundred G
Among 12 Jyotirlingas, 9 Jyotirlingas have their Associate-Lingas (Upa-Lingas). These are as follows:
S/N
Jyotirlinga
Upa-Linga
Place
1
Somnath
Antukesh
Land-sea confluence (Prabhas) Gujarat.
2
Mallikarjuna
Rudreswar
Bhrigukaksh
3
Maha Kaleshwar
Dugdhesh
Narmada River bank.
4
Omkareshwar
Kardmesh
Bindu Lake
5
Kedareshwar
Bhutesh
Yamuna River bank.
6
Bheemashankar
Bheemeswar
Barah mountain
7
Nageshwar
Bhutesh
Saraswati River bank.
8
Rameshwar
Gupteswar
Sea bank, Tamilnadu
9
Ghushmeshwar
Byghreswar
Shivalaya








Sri Sri Brigugiri Maharaj on Shivaratri 2016 @ Panchakanya Dham 

Bhimasankar at Panchakanya Dham 




Wednesday, April 30, 2014

Magic number Seven

When I first realized in 2005 in Sri Lanka, my consultation chamber, car no. house no. all were 7. On flying to Thailand seat in flight was also 7, hotel room no. too. In Seoul, S.Korea, room no of hotel was not seven. but soon we got a call that we were in wrong hotel and shifted to Hotel Lotto where room no was seven.
Since than it has become part of my life and when this no. 7 comes automatically I know everything will be taken care off.
On 13th April 2014 before my return to Guwahati on 14th, Pallavi (daughter in law) was pleading to stay back in Hyderabad. She had a dream of my plane crash and everyone were crying.
It was not very disturbing to me because symbolic meaning of Plane crash is "Plan crash". Even then I was prepared for any untoward incidence.
My tickets are booked few weeks ago and most of the time seat no is 7, this time while web checking seq. no was also seven and security check no was 7. Gait no was 25F (7). God was with me.

Thursday, March 13, 2014

Guided by Satya Sai Baba

Ms RN was PhD student unable to complete her thesis. She came to see me to help complete her incomplete mission. Her all thoughts are around this stupid thesis.
How can I help, I am not a her subject guide nor I have published any paper. Divine help at my spiritual clinic was the only solution. First day I could see Devi, Shiva, Vishnu, Saraswati, Ganesh ..but she could not meditate. She had a dream of the room in my home was filled with Lord Ganesh and HE was chasing her to kill. Dream of killing is not literal killing by destroying some part of her personality. In this case her Ego, Shell , bondage from which she was not able to come out.
Next day was Akadashi, I decided to do Ganesh puja for all 10 Ganesh Vigrah including Panch mukhi Ganesh. Meditation was powerful and she could relax.
Day three I got up late and asked her to come late. Her friend SL was also waiting to see me. During my morning pooja thought came to take her to trance to find the answer.
After induction by progressive relaxation she could see..
A road, and Swami was standing wearing white robe, only back side was seen. Can recognize him but cannot see the face. He is standing..
Steep road going down
See a tunnel with wooden door and lock... you can open it or enter I guided
Its open but cannot enter
Sealing is green every where its green
there is a narrow stream
Saw grand father he is no more
I have to cross a black bridge, its just wooden plank, cannot cross.. You can jump to cross I suggested.
Walking in a dessert one side and green other its full of muddy area .
I am walking alone Swamiji is not there,
Its is steep down merged into cloud, narrow and far.
Seen my parents and brother
Its cloudy all around I don't know where to head ...Enter and cross the cloud I said.
I can see Swami in orange robe , yellow robe cannot see his face, seeing Him from behind.
I am pleading in front of Him. Seen Green robe I am crying and telling Him
See Him walking straight
I see a stream, Swami is getting smaller in size He has disappeared in water.
Enter into water I said..
He is deep into water, don't see Him...Enter into water said I
I am lost inside water ... Keep on swimming
He has held my hand He is taking me to a book (?? my thesis) Bhagwat Gita.
A fish has bitten me and I had to open eyes....
RN was keeping Bhagwat Gita at home using as stand for statue. Never touched even when suggested by her husband.
She came to seek help to complete her Thesis but Swamiji took her to read Bhagwat Gita..
SL was very happy to witness whole episode and shared her problems. She has recently moved out of her in-laws house since all of them were drinking along with her husband.
She was in stress and fear of her husband restarting alcohol.
She is doing regular pooja but not able to detach her from Maya of the Samsara.

Wednesday, February 5, 2014

Journey with Manasadevi- Serpent Goddess

KRK is 36 years old physiotherapist was send to me for his paranormal experiences and depressive episode following death of her mother a year back. He was also asked to see me when his mother was sick, but he was not looking for metaphysical answer and I was not willing to give physical advice.
Last Friday 27th Dec 2013 he came to see me for unable to sleep due to vivid dream of a mother and a half woman half serpent being.  It immediately drew my attention.
He was only child of a large family which became nuclear when they moved for career.  Grandfather was a devotee of Lord Shiva which influenced him. Parents were college friend. Father was ritualistic believer while mother was atheist, who believed in serving mankind as service to God. He was also atheist and sceptic about religious scripture. Father would spend on pooja and donation indiscriminately.
KRK was getting repeated scary dream of a half woman and half serpent (serpent maid) coming towards him to him to embarrass him since childhood. He was very scared of the dream and never disclosed it to anyone. Later dreams of snakes also started appearing.
From his early years most of dreams would come true.  He would make some prediction based on his dreams also. KRK was also intuitive and he could feel the death of his grandfather. Due to appearance of Serpent Maid during meditation his guru never allowed him to meditate.
By the age of 20 when he was in medical college there was break of his parent with severe financial loss. Mother took a job and supported his studies. Career began with struggle from private to self sustained physiotherapist. Wife and mother were supporting but guidance in dream by Serpent maid was coming at the time of real need. He was always looking forward to live with mother after her retirement. Life turned upside down when mother was diagnosed with cancer uterus.  Running from doctor to doctor to make diagnosis and when diagnosis was made it was too late, stage IV. She left her mortal body Jan 13th 2013.
One year was depressing with recurrent dream of mother and Serpent Maid. He was also getting dreams of his mother as queen, and he was a fighter protecting her. Dreams are like out of body experience where he would go out and come back to body at the end. Dreams were exhausting and depressing.
My friend Deep was very close to him and caring. He was like Godfather to KRK, and would listen to all his problems and help him morally and materially. Deep always used to tell me about KRK and ultimately he forced him to come to me for advice on that day. I always look forward for such paranormal cases. We decided to meditate, I saw strange Laxmi devi flying. For long time there was blank but when I guided him to go out of body to fly to sky.
Initially he was seeing a Trident on the sky but when I asked him to look for someone near he saw a sage meditating over snowing mountain. His left eye became big and he guided him other direction. His face was shrivelled like a statue but body was masculine. Then an eye appeared on the centre of trident which became Lord Shiva like mercury colour sitting in lotus posture in mount Kailash smiling at him. Devi was also nearby bluish black like Kali Ma. On asking him to take guidance from Lord the pupil of eye turned into dark cave and he went inside the section of brain. On walking  through the tunnel which was dark with diamond shaped lights at the centre of the arch of tunnel. There were several doors which were cut section of brain and after passing through several such brain doors reached on the other side. It was a blue coloured strange world.
Serpent Maid appeared, SHE was calling him, but he was scared initially.  Then SHE rose on her tail with extended arms.  It was exactly same like his childhood dreams. Slowly SHE turned into Goddess form calling him. It occurred to me as Manasa Devi. SHE embraced him when he started crying.  SHE lifted her hand showing in one direction where he could see his mother’s picture which he always carry.  It was smiling face of mother who moved slowly away waving hand.
When He was with Goddess it was very energising and refreshing. Slowly he returned back through the same cave back, when bright light appeared and healed his brain.  At the end Ma Laxmi appeared and blessed him. A deep energising breath made him come back to his body relaxed, fresh and healed and happy.  He was totally lost during the session, He has never heard of Ma Manasa who is very popular in North East.

I asked him to come next day for next session which he could not make and on asking on next day it was really rewarding session. There was no scarier dream; he had stopped antidepressant and feeling much better than before. He discovered the picture of Ma Manasa which even I was unaware. Later he found an artefact which was exactly what he was getting in dream.
There are many questions remains.  Who is the queen? Who is he? What Ma Manasa wants from him? Only time will tell us.
Next session after a week he showed me the artefact which he got from a gift shop at Hyderabad. Even the shopkeeper has not heard of Manasa Devi. His dream there was no hood on the top of Mother Manasa and no wing like the artefact.
We meditated on the third floor in Ma Kali room. He went down the cave in Patal Loak with Ma Mansasa and saw the same sage who was smiling at him. It was none other than Him in past life.

Ma Manasa crawled along the round wall of the room to roof which he never realized before going to meditation as having conical top.

Unknown fear after pain in abdomen

SM was doing well for last 6 months busy in her studies. On 29th Dec 13 she called me to consult immediately. Trance was easy ....
" 1st life:
Something black.
Door....
House.. someone tying to open it. can hear keys, someone trying to open the door.
I am hiding in the house.
Small kid looks like Shashank.
They are banging the door, they are trying to break the door, they are in..
They took small boy away..
They shoot me. its all black.. its white."
2nd Life
" I can see someone sitting with blue eyes, he is teaching me something. I am following him, he has taken me through a door its all bright everything is green.
I am 4 year old, playing around happily. Family talking to me...
I am in a closed room everything is black.
Some one knocking the door, I am 17 years, they drag me out.
Stab me in the stomach, they are taking revenge, the man who is stabbing me has same blue eyes.
I am left alone in pain. I can feel all blood.
Everything is dark
Its white"
3rd Life
"I am in a room, very scared, I am 16-17 year sitting in a couch.
Some one is opening the door, I am scared to move..
They breaking, they shoot me its all black. It's white"
4th Life
I can see two people coming to me a small kid and blue eye man. They are happy I am happy.
I can see a black dot, man asked me to follow it, I walked into the black dot, I am in a house. I am kid, they are calling me I am running down the step, I fall I hit my head ..
Its black.. everything is white...
5th Life
Same man blue eye its all white, he is telling me welcome back.
They are lots of people everyone is happy, I have seen everyone's face. I don't know who is the blue eyed man. All other are family, I can see Nani, Nimi Mama, I can see lots of school friends.
Its bright day, I am married, I work in a office.
I go back home, someone hitting me , my husband is hitting me. He came back home drunk, he has blue eyes he is very angry, he takes knife stabs me..
Everything is black,   white.
Its all white, I can see P..chi, S..aj. The othe are looked like Ra..d, all are with me laughing.
Its all white all white I am meditating with someone.. can't see that person clearly.

Leaving her meditating we went out. She meditated for some time and left home happy. There was attempt to break their house at night three days ago since then her fear emerged.

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Pain in abdomen returned

July 09 2013

SM came on 8th evening with recurring pain in abdomen now spreading to the side also. She was not willing for meditation. She was meditating for one month without any pain, but now unable to meditate more then few min. Pain has returned. She decided to come back on Wednesday 10th July with father who has gone out of station. July 9th evening she called me “can we have a session today; I could not go to college due to pain. I will come after dinner by 9pm with mom” 9.30pm we started session with initial meditation she was comfortably lying covering herself and ready to record with iPhone 4. I also brought my notebook. After 5min of meditation I asked can you see anything.

First life… “It's white ……….. There is a old car….it’s raining…I am sitting, someone is driving … looking for…I stop near very old house...lots of light decorated...I am giving payment to driver… it’s a taxi. It’s raining heavily; I am up for a party. In side huge hall, so many people all girls are in gown and boys well dress suits. It’s beautifully decorated waiting for someone to come. Someone is coming, guest of the party, newlywed couple. Everyone is congratulating, all of us are just talking, eating, having fun. Someone is knocking at the door, they are banging the door. Few people walked in… they are holding the couple harassing them. I am trying to defend. Someone has hit me with the gun on my stomach, then my head. I fell unconscious. People are calling my name, they are shaking me to get-up. My head and stomach are aching..Everything is black and it’s white….I can see a small boy beside me, talking laughing; he is touching my head and stomach. He is telling it won’t cause pain anymore.”

Second life… “I was sleeping 16-17years old. Its dark raining heavily, I can hear sound in my room. See same eyes looking at my eyes. I couldn’t move, I was yelling, he told me something, he is asking me to accept him. I am trying to excuse, he told something, hurting me. I am not in room, somewhere else. It doesn’t smell good, rats. I have cut’s bruises, rats are coming, many rats, all over biting me, everything is dark, can’t see anything. It's white…..”

Third Life…. “I am going round, up and down, someone is holding me, it’s marry- go-round, I am small. I am holding on to somebody, looks like papa. Playing round…he is lifting me up, throwing me…My mom died so dad is only support. Dad is not in town I am at home. There was someone knocking at the door, peeping through the eyehole. Some stranger he wanted to call somebody. I didn’t open, they left afterward. I and dad are going somewhere, he was singing on a care, we are going… someone hit a car…everything is black… white. Can see that man walking past me looks at me smiling and going, everyone is smiling at me. Someone is coming she is telling something..Its white……”

All these three lives were new but short, she died premature, in two lives about teen age 16 years same like her age now. Why she suffered so much, is it really her past life, so many patients we see everyday where there is no explanation for there suffering, is it all related to there cellular memory, these were some of the question my wife was asking after the session.

She slept till morning and went home.

Thursday, March 28, 2013

Un-treatable Pain in Abdomen from Previous Birth


Dec 24th 2012


SM is a younger daughter of my close friend PrM. She is unlike her elder sister who is independent, free and working after her graduation.
SM started getting pain around navel since last year it was transient. This year her pain became more protracted it became so severe that she visited her gynecologist, gastroenterology surgeon and physician. All of them examined and did not found anything on clinical examination. Ultrasound abdomen, CT abdomen and endoscopy were all normal. She was prescribed symptomatic medication without any relief. I was out in Guwahati for last one month. They were planning for family Christmas holiday to Hong Kong. Homeopathy was started initially and then followed to another doctor without any relief.
PrM has consulted his friend Gastroenterology in US who also made same diagnosis of IBS. PrM was reluctant in using medication with side effects. He continued homeopathy with some relief.
I came back on 23rd Dec 12 and examined her; she had some abdominal muscle tenderness both sides. Gave Reiki and ask to come next day.
Today I relaxed her with progressive relaxation and took her to this life to find out any traumatic event, she was visualizing for age one and growing with once chest pain while appearing for examination. Once met with car accident with knee pain. Abdominal pain came first when she was 15 for short time.
I ask her to heel with white life but she could not draw the light but started seeing her one of the past life..." There is a black man who is yelling at me in office, there are lots of files there, a man with suit appears he also scolded me, I got pain in abdomen and went home." "It is some western country with broad clean road, and a multistory flat I went, there is a man probably my husband. He took me to hospital"  " I have gone to hospital several time, they and got operated, there is a scar on my abdomen" She grew old and died with pain, after death her soul went to a temple and lay down, saw a Shiva ling and then went up.
Next life she saw herself with her best friend Anu of this life playing happily but grew old with abdominal pain and died at old age. Her soul went to see her friend and both went together up to sky laughing.
Third life was short but painful; she was tied by rope and being beaten by a lady to death. She was beaten with stick all over, till she lost consciousness and end her life.
Fourth life was in a orphanage, many Children are there, heap of toys but her pain came back and she was taken to hospital and operated. When she grew became wheelchair bound. During last operation at age 21 she died.
All these lives have not explained origin of her pain, and then she saw last life where she was running amok till she fell unconscious, there were three bad guys were standing. They stabbed her to death and beaten with stick. She found the cause of her pain.
Session was finished with forgiving all those who had pained her.
She got up relaxed and without pain ready to enjoy her holiday.
Three day ago when I meditated from Guwahati, Lord Shiva, Devi, Lord Vishnu and several saints blessed her, I was sure she will be alright for holiday.

Jan 5th 2013


SM went to Hong-Kong with her parents for Christmas holiday. Mild pain persisted, but they enjoyed the trip and came back on New Year. I had to back from Guwahati due to Ascension of my brother on 5th Jan 2013 following fatal accident.
Pain was coming back but they were not as concerned as before. SM appeared for an examination; during Math’s exam pain was more severe. For last few days her behavior has changed and she is annoyed with minimal provocation.
15th Jan 2013:
My mind was much better, first time I could do evening meditation, while going to my niece house SM came with her mother for second session. PrM had already took an appointment which slipped from my mind.
Session started much easily, she sat in easy pose taking wall support at my spiritual healing room ground floor.
There was blessing from Lord Shiva and other Gods. Her visualization started after asking her to go back to the source of pain.
“There is a light, small boy is playing with his father, I am also there, very small two years. They (some bad men) are taking me away, I am scared not happy. It is not a good place; they have locked me in a room. I have grown up, there are other girls of my age (15) they are doing bad things with me really bad. Beating me, there is a pain all over body, everything is black, I can’t see anything white light, I am no more"
Next lives were short and I could remember partially, SM and her mother was recording it in her I5 phone, but it was not very clear. I would try to recollect and write it but not in order.
2nd life: SM was growing with her sister who got married, there was no pain she grew old and died after her husband. There was no pain in abdomen.
3rd life: There is a train she was rushing; her sister and brother are also there in the same train. There was a scare of bomb blast; they were running away from home. All got injured probably from some accident of blast and that life ended.
4th Life: She was small could not walk, going to school happy. Grew old not very happy everybody is touching her,
5th Life: Wearing red long gown, entering into a castle with a man may be brother. They are from royal family, speaking some language could not pronounce properly. They lost the war and had to vacate the castle. Everyone is sad and crying. They had to life bad life, starving. She got married to someone at 21 and went back to castle but died next day due to starvation.
6th Life: She was working came home with pain in abdomen. A man took her to hospital, she got operated, they found pus in abdomen, pain relived following operation.
7th Life: She was in a office working hard they were appreciating her work. She had done lot for the office.

17th Jan 2013


9.15PM Hyderabad India

She was guided her to go to the happiest life.

1st life: Joint family in Russia

All of us are sitting, grandparents, parents, uncle, aunts and cousins
Sitting and laughing.
What is your age? 20
What dress are you wearing? Colorful frock.
Grand pa is like Nana, one of the aunt looks like Poonam mausi (maternal aunt). All of us are eating.
What kinds of furniture’s are there? Wood, round table.
Is there electricity? Ya. Congested place cannot walk around the place.
Which place is this? Small town.
Which language are you speaking? I don't know, not English, I think it is Russia.
Someone rings the bell, someone coming inside. I don't know who.
I can' see anything, I can see only dining hall. All of us are old, Nana and Nani are not there, only cousins are there, we are old. I see small kids... Do you know them? I don’t know them. Seem my grand children, I am playing with them.
I am lying down in some room, really old. Everyone is around me. Everything is black.... everything is white, all white, I am going somewhere, I am dead, someone is calling me. He is trying to talk to me.

2nd Life: Handicap in orphanage, abused

I open my eyes in some room, white light, someone comes, talk to me, I am at breakfast. I am handicapped, can't walk, I am in wheel chair, 8-9year old. Eating breakfast, there is a small girl sitting right besides eating.
I got ready to go to school, everyone is like me handicapped, all of us enjoy going to school. We were happy. But there is a boy silent, never spoke to anyone. All of us try to talk to him. One day I follow him, someone took me to a place, it wasn’t nice it didn’t feel good. I was in danger. They took advantage of me; there are many people with boy. I was crying every second. I was being physically and sexually harassed, it wasn’t good. I was in pain.
That boy who was always there, his eyes staring at me. I was in lot of pain, everything is black.
After life:
Everything is bright light around me. Some person is trying to call me, he is asking to come near him. That man is telling me something. I don’t know him who is he. He is telling something, goes away.

3rd Life: Happy life in Joint family in a Palace,

I am sitting there with a small boy in my lap and sleep.
I get up, I am in a garden. In the room 15-16yers old. I had fallen down we were playing all ten of us with the ball. This place is huge like a palace. Garden was big, many maids around us, they took care of us. We all liked a nice lady. Her face looks like PM (elder sister) the way she talks is similar. She is asking how the day was. She is nice. She is our guardian she is nice.
Few of them are of my age in 11th or 12th class. We are deciding college. She is sending us to whatever college we wanted to go. We have graduated. She is old. We take over her business. She died of old age.
We take care of money, whatever comes out of business.
We go in a train, we leave the place. We are running from some group as fast as we can. We reached some safe place. We can see bad people, searching. We tell everybody to keep quite. They find us, they shoot us. One of them shoots me, I die, but nothing is black. I see myself stretching, I pick up some thing and through at them, it kills that person. Everything is black.

4th Life: Car accident in India by two bad men

There is a light flashing at me its a car light, two men in it telling something one of them is drunk. I walked passed them, they pass comment, I ignore, I walk. I can’t see anything else.
This is a different place, looks like Indian road, scooter, cycle, pedestrian, busy crowded.
There is nothing can’t see anything after that. Can see people walking, I see blood, lot of blood; met with an accident those two people killed me. I am bleeding, may people around us everything is black.
Everything is white.

5th Life: Happy life with husband no kids, die old age

There is a small boy with me holding hand and walking. I step in a car and fall. I am in bed someone beside me, he is my husband. We get ready to go to work. Both of us are working happily. We have no kids, we are old. Both of us die together. I see my soul going with my husband. I have the boy but no man. Someone comes. She is telling me something.

6th Life: Dies at 13th after mother’s death with cancer


I jump again to the ground with the small boy. I am really small, I have white curly hair.
I am in a hospital there is a lady who is in pain. I don’t know why I am in hospital. I see many emergency cases being rushed to the emergency room.
I am sitting clueless, someone comes near me, takes me to some room, a lady is lying down. I think my mother, she has cancer. Doctor tells she will die soon.
I am alone, she was only with me. I die by starving, no money, and 13th year lots of loan to clear.
Everything is black; there is a white light, bright white light in the bottom.

7th Life: Small boy my son, bathing in cold lake


I don’t know where I am. We are sitting and eating, just two of us, a boy, 20 years old. We take a swim in a lake, very cold water, we came out immediately. Later both of us are married. There is a small boy with us the same boy. He is my son, he grows up. He is 25 now; we are really old, dying. I die everything is black.

8th Life:

There is a white dressed man, came to talk to me. He tells me every time, its bothering me. I see a woman with glasses I have seen her before, face is very familiar. I don’t know who she is. There is a man he is holding my hand, he takes me far, I can’t se anything outside, that place is not good. I don’t feel comfortable. In some corner dark room, someone opened it, there are other men. The place is not good at all. I am physically and sexually harassed. I run but they harass me till I die. I can’t see anything, my eyes are closed I am in a lot of pain. I can’t do anything, it’s becoming black.
The boy some things are white color around. I am trying to follow it light. A woman is telling to follow me direction. I don’t know who she is. That lady is very familiar, with glasses. She is telling something. She is asking me not to be scared of anything and she leaves.

9th Life in a ship

I am in some ship; many people are going from somewhere. One night high tied, three of us outside standing, we are scared we may die. Its high tied, ship is drowning, and all of us are running around, I am left behind. It has crashed its sinking. Someone in a boat, I can’t stay there. I see rescue boat, there take me, I am in a hospital, people are treating me.
Someone take me, I am old, coughing, my vision is blurred, it’s turning black, darkness everywhere, and small white light coming towards me.

10th Life; Mexico, stunt man

 I see a man, the bad man eyes. I run as fast as I could. I am in some other world. Small town like Mexico, lots of fun. I have friends there they are from USA, everybody like Mexico, they are laughing. I was some kind of student, used to do stunt. I tried one and got hurt, I was in Operation Theater everything is dark. I can’t see anything.

11th Life:

There is man talking to me, telling me something good, he comes hold my hand I am small 11year. Big man nice he tells me something about life, live as much as I can.
I can’t see anything there is a yellow light, it is from some temple, white color, I am going there. That man is with me. It’s Lord Shiva, I am sitting with Lord. That man is asking me to pray, I close my eyes. I am seeing Shiva Linga, I am praying that man is still with me. I am 10. I don’t know that man. I am outside somewhere with that man. I go with him I don’t know…

12th Life: Bad man cutting hand and throat

I see some eyes he scares me, he is pulling me my hair, he cuts me take a knife and cuts my head, I am crying. A man he is not leaving me. Everything is dark then there is a white light.

13th Life: Happy life

I am in a world happy everything happy, everyone is talking, and it’s nice to be there. I am still 10years old. I am 25 years everybody talking to each other. I am in some house. I am working I have a kid, both of us really happy. We have lots of fun. I grew old, he is student, and he got married. I was there with him every time. I was very old 80 years, had grand children cute. I was old lying down, sleeping.
Everything is black. There is a white light comes. Then an old lady talking, telling you lived a happy life, she left. There is a white light, everyone is white. They are sharing happy memories all white

14th Life: Head injury

I am in some room, hospital, admitted I don’t know why. My head hurting, there is a bandage; I am 25-26 years old. I can’t remember. I have short term memory loss, I am taken to the operation theater, everything is black, a white light, a boy same boy. I am carrying him, he is telling me something I don’t know, and everything is white.

15th Life: Car accident

The kid is there with me he is following me I am running away from the headlight, I see that man eye I am running from him a car hits me everything is black, it’s white. I am white no one this time. It’s nice place. I like to be here. Everything is white no one is there. I can see someone comes near me she is holding my hand, telling me something. I don’t know what. It’s important, I don’t know what. She leaves.

16th Life: Happy life garden

I am sitting somewhere, it’s garden, same age lady, we are laughing we have kids. I am 35, all of us are laughing talking, nice everything. We grow old, kids are old married. I die because of old age and walking towards a guy, everything is black, white, walking laughing and I am very happy.

17th Life: Family sister and mother starved to death

I am in some room some toy room we are playing. I see a lady, I am 4 only. She is my mom. We are playing. I am really small. There is a girl like PM (elder sister), exactly like her, but girl is younger than me. I am studying abroad with her. We have no money. We earn for each other, but we lost a loan, we couldn’t pay we starved to death. Everything is black. There is white light. Someone is calling me but everywhere white. I can’t.

18th Life:

There is a tree, I am sitting 10 years , reading some book, many of us are reading a boy all of us are close by we have same garden, we come every day  and go back home I went to college. I studied; I had a job a family. I lost my parents, I am old. Kids are big, everything is black. There is a white light bright there is a old women like an angel and small boy again. They have gone, I am happy , everything is white. I am happy. I can’t see anything everything is white.
Relaxed in white light and went home after two hours of session

Jan 28th 2013

SM had an examination pre-final. Pain started again but mild. She wanted to meet me and came back at 8.30pm. PM her elder sister also came because she has pain over spine and body without fever.
It's white.. you can heel yourself and PM…

Life 1: Blind in US

I can see a door, black door, lots of people coming from the door, everyone is happy laughing. Some comedy show, it's old, American kind of comedy show. Most of the people are blond. I am sitting on a bench all alone. Waiting for someone, who comes and sits beside me. He looks like Suraj (cousin). He is counseling me. We walk home, he put me to bed. Everything is black. I can hear, feel, smell, people holding hand but can’t see. I am around 24yers old. I think I am blind. Can hear laughter, can smell but can’t see. Someone is holding my hand small boy. Same small boy, I can see he has smiled at me. I am sitting on a sofa very old. I am talking to people of same age, can hear them. One of them looks like Nimi (friend) other one looks like Sephali (friend).
Everything is becoming black, everything is white.

Life 2: Girls are beaten and stabbed to death

That man, talking to me, those eyes is staring right into my eyes, telling me something. I can see lot of people, beating everybody, bleeding, everybody crying all girls. They are pulling them with hair. It's not a good place. I am also there, all blood around me. They are hitting us. If we don’t listen they cut with knife. That man with eyes coming hear me with knife. I don’t know where to go, he take knife, cut my throat and stab me. Everything is black, everything is white.

Life 3: Bad life beaten to death

There is a lady talking me, she is white, everything is white. She is warning me to stay away from someone.
I am walking it's a small town. I am six years old, cheerful. I am older, walking on the same road. Someone scolds me, that man doesn’t seem good he is putting me somewhere. I am crying, I don’t want to go. Those eyes, he is pulling me. I am crying it's not good place. My eyes closed I am yelling, I have lot of pint I can’t move. They seem to enjoy what they do.
Everything is black…it's white.. I am really happy where I am its peace. No one is there, no evil eyes, not even small boy.

Life 4: good life having fun

I am really small, 4 years, I am playing around, having lot of fun. I am 16 am having lot of fun loving my life. I am working in a small office. I am happy, happily married. I am old really old 76years. I am lying down looks like my coffin dead. But someone is calling me some one taking me soul, same man evil eyes. He is asking me to follow him, everything is white.
I am really happy, he is telling me something, apologizing for something. He is telling he is sorry for what he has done and he walks away. I am alone, confused but happy. Small boy is near me he is only 2yers old chubby blond hair, never seen him before. This evil eye said sorry, he is tall, black hair.

Life 5: Died of Accident in hospital

I am in some room; someone is trying to wake me. See two people; I am in hospital, one mom other dad. There are so many people, they are asking me who am I? Where am I? Am confused, I don’t know. I met with an accident. I have brother he has same evil eyes, who died. I am in a hospital bed … can’t move, I am crying can’t stop crying.  I can’t breathe any more, it's suffocating. Everything is black in front of me, everything is white.
I see my brother waving at me, he is telling he is waiting for me, same eyes it's him. I am happy there.

Life 6: Son and me killed for not signing a paper

This small boy holding my hand he seem like my son, he is pulling me around, in a garden, having lots of fun, someone came taking him away. I am crying searching for him. I know someone took him away, searching crying. I find him after a day bruises everywhere. He is scared. The place is bad, someone hit me on back, I am tied, and head is hurting a lot. My son is somewhere. They ask me to sign something I say no they killed my son in front of me. They killed me later. Everything is black … white..
I see my son he is happy, he is playing with some man. They both are happy, all of us are happy here. The small boy looks like Shashank (Nephew). I am happy here everything is white.

Life 7; PM as sister and Shashank her son, died of accident crossing road

I can see same small kid, I am very small. He is giggling 7months old. I can’t see near me. I get up to see how he is, in a hospital.  Someone is lying down his mother. She looks like PM that kid looks like her son. I am the only one supporting her. She is in home talking rest, all of us are happy. I am working, crossing the road, car comes and hit me. Everything is black. I am opening my eyes with baby noise I can’t move. I can see a doctor beside me he is talking to me. I respond back. Everything is black.. it's white.

Life 8: Car accident fell off a cliff, meditated with Lord Buddha

It's raining heavily lots of cars are driving its hilly area, a slop. Heavy traffic can’t see anything. It's all white. I died of road accident. No one is here I am happy, lots of peace. The car which I was driving went right at the edge, I lost control the car fell off the cliff and I died. It's black.. it's turning white. Can see someone else with me..I don’t know how she is. It's Sanjo masi, she is holding my hand I am happy it's all white. I see some god it's Lord Buddha. He is asking me to sit beside. I sit and meditate. I can’t see anything its all white.

Life 9: Boat house in sea, died of drowning. Colorful heaven

Its blue I can see water. I am in a ship. My family lives on a boat. All of us live there lots of fun, in the middle of the sea. Its high tide, water comes over boat. It's not safe, no help it's in the middle all of us in the water drowning. Everything is black; it's slowly turning white its white. Everything is white. There is lots of peace, lots of color; I don’t know where it is. I am happy its colorful.

Life 10: Died of cancer

My head hurting I open my eyes something on head some bandage. No one around me, I get up, someone comes near me. They ask me not to move, I am talking lot of rest, lots of injection it looks like I have cancer. They give me chemotherapy. I am old really old. I am lying down. I have some kid around everything is turning dark.. There is white, light come over it I am happy here.

Life 11: Died of fire in match factory

I am standing for some bus at stop. It's not India, I am going, I catch the bus. I get down there is some library. I work there. I am in a college in a University sitting in a class so many people. I am working in some factory. That factory makes lighters. The factory in fire everywhere everybody is running around, all are running. I am saving people, asking them to go I have burn body is hurting everything is white..
It's giving me peace; no one is here to disturb me. I am happy really happy. I can’t see anything all white.. it gives lots of happiness. Lots of peace, feels like staying here.

Life 12th: Running in a train to small town, died old

I can feel shaking something, I don’t know who. Its train there is many people are hiding from someone. We are running for safer place we reach a small town all of us start living here again. I am old really old. I am coughing, I can’t breathe anymore. I close my eyes everything is black… white it's gives lots of peace. I like the white light it's nice. Everything is white.. Can’t see anything it's all white..

March 27th 2013

SM was not willing to undergo any more session she was doing well. Her 11th class examination was over without any pain.